“Just as the sun shines simultaneously on the tall cedars and on the flower as if it were alone on the earth, so Our Lord is occupied with each soul as though there were no others like it.”

Something i learned today at work. Im sure all of us at one time or another has found a coin on the ground. 98% of the time its a penny though we were hoping for a $5 bill! haha So we find it and usually we juss leave it durr. Well next time you see one on the ground, pick it up. Look at the coin and what does it say? Whas the inscription on it? It says, "In God We Trust".Crazy how the same inscription is written on errsingle coin. God's name is printed on each one of those coins.

To me this is God's way of dropping us a message telling us to 'trust in him.' Each time you pick up a coin on the ground, pray and see if your trust is in God at that moment. Then pick up the coin as a response to God, saying, yes i do trust in you GOd. I think thas God's way of starting a conversation with you. Its Him dropping on by to see if youre trusting Him w/your whole heart. Its his personal message to you. So remember next time you see that penny on the ground, pick it up to see if YOUR trust in God.

Please keep me in your prayers, that i can put my full trust in God this evening. That God will use me as His dwelling place to send out His message. Lord i ask you to empty me so i may be filled w/Your spirit. Use me as your instrument to lead this community into praise & worship this evening.


That song dwelling place, is a perfect example of trust.

"Tell me what you feel ‘Cause I’m feeling something real..."im done, im out GOd bless!

It's the things that make you go hmmmm...Paparazi shot right durr!

"Be strong and take heart, all who hope in the Lord..."-Psalm 31:25

That was the verse that stuck out to me as i sat and partied w/Jesus tonite. Yes, thas right i partied w/Jesus @ St. DOminic Savio this evening. It was really good cuz i needed to go. He told me tonite to juss chill and relax, that He's taking curr of me so 'let go.' ITs great to know that durrs adoration around the corner thas 24/7. So im hoping and praying that i guess my own 'puzzle box' opened soon. THough i know whatever it is, He'll direct me and guide me through all of it. Whenever i go St. Dominics and walk into the adoration chapel, i feel like im in a whole new world. Like as if its Jesus and I taking a walk, and juss telling Him errthang that im in need of, eerrthang that im hoping for and errthang that im grateful for. Then when you walk out of the chapel its kinda ::sigh:: Its okay i know He's constantly watching over me.

These past couple weeks it seems the topic has been bout relationships. Many people posted what they looked for/what they wanted in a person. ITs crazy i was told something today that totally made sense. Something that i think applied to me. FOr some people you dont actually got to be in a relationship to know how one works. Or you dont have to have dated like 1000 people to understand a relationship. One can understand how it works through the way they treat their friends, their family and not only that, juss other people's experiences in relationships. I took a marriage and family class hmm 2 yurrs ago. It was a very interesting class. A lot of relationship lessons and themes were taught.

THough to me, not throw god card, i think the best relationships are the ones whurr God's in the middle. Whurr the two work on helping to increase one another's faith in God. Keyword hurr is 'Grow.' Dont get me wrong, im not saying a relationship w/o GOd in the middle of it is wrong. No dont get my words twisted, all i know is, the best relationships that seem to last are Christ-centered one. YOu know i was watching that movie the 'wedding singer' this afternoon. Actually i only saw part of it, then when i flipped back it was over. I like that movie, its funny. I forgot why i brought that up, anyway i dont know whurr im going w/this.

These three qualities are what i look for in a girl. Despite the fact ive never had a girl.(Actually i was in a 'brief' v2 relationship, but that didnt last and well when i proposed to ann @ freds birfday party that really didnt last either. haha am i doing something wrong hurr?! haha)
nor been a relationship nor even really dated anyone, this is my story...haha well its not a story but you now what i mean.

Faith, is somethign thas important. Faith is foundation of errthang, shes gotta be catholic. She has to be devoted. No im not saying shes gotta quote scripture cuz i cant even do that. Juss someone who goes to mass errsun. Prays, prays, and prays. Carrying out her faith w/good works. Who;s love for God is truly in her heart. Who realizes w/o GOd her life, is nothing. Someone who prays w/an open heart and listens w/an open heart.

Hope, to me is looking for good in errthang. Meaning in erroutcome. Hope comes also w/humility. Someone who isnt preoccupied in herself. Doesnt worry bout whether she looks hot or not. Hope is looking at things positively. I dont want someone who is juss sarcastic like no other. Example: if i said, 'Oh the weather is d0pe outside.' Then she says, 'How can you say that when it rained?' Someone who drowns negativity out. Who can help bring me up when im down and out. Turns a gloomy day to a sunny day. Hope is believing in all things, its like faith, you may not be able to see it, but you believe it you know its there. Hope is TRUSTING in GOD. Not dependent on materlistic things, but in GOd will provide for whatever she needs.

Last but not least...

Love, yes as it says, in the 1 corithinas, the greatest of all these three is love. Love is well being able to see Jesus in each person. Love is bearing, fruits of kindness, humility, peace and more. Love is patient. Love is a key to any type of relationship. Love is ones love and devotion to God. If you dont have love, then your relationship is nothing but weeds. Love is growing and learning w/each other. Love is taking out the weeds, and growing in red roses. Love is sticking by each other, through each difficult time. Love is saying, 'im sorry' and 'i forgive you.' Love isnt necessarily being right all the time, but understanding each others faults. Love is being able to move and look forward. Love is letting of the insecurities and trusting. Love is Jesus' sacred heart matching w/the one heart and bond of the couples. Love is being able to see an imperfect person, perfectly. Most of all, Love never fails.

OH yeah, i forgot to mention i need someone who'll say, 'agh' before errword. ALso she needs to have the same lingo as me. haha MEang you know who talks the same way. haha jk! JOKE ONLY, SO RELAX! So thas my scoop for tonite, agree w/me or not, i dont really curr. This is wha i come to look for and what i continue to look out for. Is that too much to ask? Ha hopefully i dont sound hmm picky? Errone is entitled to what they hope for, and this is obviously what i hope for. I pray God someday (like tomorrow haha jk) will send me a person w/these characteritics. Until that time comes, i continue to pray for that special person.


Remember making slow jam mixes, back in the day?!

"When waters get rough will you still swim with me..."Im done, im out God bless!

"For my heart is always with Him, day and night it thinks unceasingly of its heavenly and divine Friend, to whom it wants to prove its affection. Also within it arises this desire: not to die, but to suffer long, to suffer for God, to give Him its life while praying for poor sinners. "

Stop drooling! haha thas my cousin michelle and i yay! she's totally d0pe, it was coo we were talking for a while juss kinda catching up. She use to be in a singing group. shes use to model and wha not. Now she works in a law firm office, shes a whas it called a paralegal sec. I guess they take up celeb. cases. Interesting job i must say. OH man she's a really d0pe dancer too, if you ever see her! She carries a lot of wisdom also, totally d0pe girl!

HAd work this morning, easy day. We were suppose to have a chess tournament today, but due to lack of registration it was cancelled. So i had to be @ the site to tell people it was cancelled in case people come. Only one old man came by to check it out. I left @ 11am to spv for sfc or clp or cfc, whatever its called. That was cool i guess imma be helping kuya ariel facililtate a group, well rotating along w/reirich. Its funny cuz errone in the group is fluent in bof eng. and tagalog except me. I got one of those name badges holders, so i feel special now! haha

RObby, boss lady and beyonce came to capture me this afternoon for a couple hours. Ate a bjs and was able to eat and shurr a pizookie! MmMmMm i love those things. I also was making up a convo. for these two people that looked liek they were on a date. haha it was funny, the burr got into it also. The service durr was really bad though, it was freaking slow juss like a dial up internet connection! haha

Went to the cerritos mall and went to hollister. Durr were these young people modeling i take it for the store or something. I told burr i shouldve been durr haha i would make a d0pe hollister model. The pics i took in santa monica prooves it! I didnt really find anything durr though, i think imma go durr juss to get some pants. Actually, i like their hooded sweatshirts. Hollister is d0pe! So on teh way back in the curr i ws able to sing errsong on this slow jam cd the burr made. Even on the pops one too i got all the song! It was fun! yay!

Hurrs a d0pe photo i took tonite, of my godson and my cousin!



I dont know what to say today so tahnks for reading! yay!

"All I hear is Bad Boy this and Bad Boy that, Bad Boy will beat you down wit a baseball bat..."im done, im out God bless!

"Trials are nothing else but the forge that purifies the soul of all its imperfections..."

THis picture is cool, it looks like a stepping block, it kinda goes higher and higher. Maybe i only see it. Thas tanya's friend(forgot his name), then thas tanya, then me, then michelle. So i chose this quote cuz this past week ive been going through small trials. I guess theyre things God is testing me, yet ive been failing. Havent been the best at seeing Jesus through errone i come in contact with. Its more less w/certain people 'get out of my face' type thing. Thats the irritated feeling i was working with all week long. So obviously i wasnt posessing fruits of the spirits, more less the bad fruits. Which all leads to giving into what the devil wants.

THough im feeling better now, the ugliness is pretty much gone. Im doing my best to bear the fruits of the spirit and not bad fruits. Im sure no one wants to be a bad apple on a tree. I know i sure wouldnt want to be one. Im going to try my best to be more patient and understanding, trying not to let others get to me. I want to be happy guy and not mr. bad mood guy. haha
So i can only ask for your prayers that i may be happy guy, trying to see the good in errone i come across.

So what happened today, i went to mass @ 8am. SOmething i havent done since lent. Went back home and fell asleep till about 11am. Talked to 'kuya burr passion god of the neptunes' hahaha oh man thas forever long name. WEnt to lunch w/the burr @ hometown buffet, he was craving fried chicken so we went. Actually i met him durr i walked from my house. I dont know why he was craving for chicken, when he should be eating only burries. haha Came home and then left again and went out to nordstroms w/miguel. APologetics later on, which was good. Followed by a road trip to arcadia to watch an sfc graduation.

The friendster girl cheryl i messaged never responded back to me yet. TIta marissa's daughter chentel is on friendster, wow who isnt on friendster?! My sister is on some other friendster type thing called something else. THough i doubt people are going to do that since durrs already friendster. LEts make friends on friendster! yay! friends, friends, friends! Ive been getting a lot of these 'yeah ive met you before, juss dont know whurr.' i feel bad that i dont end up remembering these people. I took the SH petition box home and burned, while praying over the petitions. I figured the box was getting too big. I pray that each persons petition is granted through God's will.


Im excited for SH cafe, arent you?!

"Roast, club boasts and I'm headed home with you, You know when you're going, I'm going to miss you It's so official..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"The proud person is like a grain of wheat thrown into water: it swells, it gets big. Expose that grain to the fire: it dries up, it burns. The humble soul is like a grain of wheat thrown into the earth: it descends, it hides itself, it disappears, it dies; but to revive in heaven. "

Oh man im bad in remembering names, probably like most of us. We see the face and they look familiar or weve met them before but we forget whurr or their name. ANyway, i was talking to this guy named, charles from sfc. He was talking to me bout the household on mon. i was like oh you were durr? He goes, 'yeah i was sitting right next to you.' Then he said, 'YOu did the thanksgiving prayer right?' Haha i felt bad cuz i didnt remember him being durr, i was probably still frustrated cuz errone was late and it took forever!

I like this quote cuz the way it talks bout humility really hmm hits me you could say. The proud person gets thrown into the water, gets big but then it ends up dying. AS for a humble person, their seed ends up hiding, not curring whether its seen or not. IT ends up disapurring and going into heaven. Juss some food for thought i guess you could say. We all need humility in order to get to heaven. The bigger our heads get, the smaller our pusos become.

The new rec leader started today, nothing really new. He does the contract supervision on the weekends. I hope i end up getting along w/him, i dont know he's real quiet. Besides that this is gonna be the first 'guy' rec leader weve had. I cooked pancit today w/the kids. It turned out really good. In fact i had to cook rice to go with it also. (Ha im soo filipino) I had to do it the 'american way.' YOu know put rice and water in the pot and let it cook. I guess thas wha you gotta do when you aint got rice cookers. So it was fun making it, it was like being on the food network. I should make a show and call it 'isda live.' yay!

Ths weekend is hurr! I had zoomed over to mark anthony's birfday bash @ firdays @ the block. Oh man did that place bring back memories. He ended up doing the same thing i did on mine, but his juss wasnt as bad as mine. Poo guy, hopefully he wont feel like crap tomorrow. He wont get that same feeling i did the next day. Though at least w/my birfday i was perfectly conscience of errthang that had went one. From the first drink all the way to end along w/the broken glass. haha I told melissa(el juego's friend)'hey this is kinda like my birfday huh, juss not as bad.' She juss shook her head. Yup, i dont like really drinking in places unless its vegas. The drinks are too expensive hurr.

The place was packed w/tons of people, though people were coming and going. I saw reirich durr w/his 'friend.' In fact i got a picture of that one too. In fact i actually met the girl before, i dont remember whurr and when though. Its funny cuz she said the same thing, like 'yeah i met you before, blah, blah.' Im sure it was a while back ago, anyway i had some good times w/the gang. I got invited to yfc camp, i may go, id probably be the oldest one durr. Ha michelle said, unlke us youd be going backwards and then forwards. Most people to yfc then sfc.' haha i thought that was funny. She has one of those personalities, whurr it's juss friendly. Very kind and considerate. We all took pictures galore @ fridays tonite. Pretty much errone had their camera.

Oh so i was on friendster tonite @ work, the after hours. Anyway, so i was you know browsing through people. I ran into this one girls whos pic and only pic was her holding the rosary in her hand as if she was praying it. SHe seemed real coo and i guess as fred would say a good catholic girl. I messaged her and said, 'hey wasssup asl?' hah jk! actually i juss asked for her #! naw i invited her to prayer meeting. I gave her the link to the website to see if she might wanna come one tues. Though i have no idea who she is or wha she looks like. Thas all a mystery still, well see if she messages me back.

I was cleaning out my SRE folder and i opened this letter that i had sent to one of my kids. Only he never returned the next yurr. Included in the letter i sent was the ol skool pamphlet for SH. It was crazy cuz it said Head servant leader-Marianne Soratorio YOuf Ministry Head-Emeline Soratorio. Then it had info. inside bout what the prayer group is and wha happens during the meetings. On the back inside page was like 'Youf and young adult teachings starting may 2001.' Thas what drew me to SH the first time, i was informed @ youf alpha it was gonna be a youf group. Ha i remember going up durr on tues. and it was hardly anyone durr. Ahh yess those were the days. Sh ol skool style, w/the ol skool band, no such thing as uprm, no circle grouping, no who builds the faith song, no youf durr. Yurrs later look how its changed. Its growing slowly but surely.

Ha i was thinking its crazy how the evolution of karaoke has changed. I remember my aunt buying one of those big mini streo ones. The ones w/the dual cassete tape and then you plug the mic into durr. Then you put in some tape to sing along with. After that came those huge laser disc type ones. They were like the size of records, youd have to flip the disc over if you wanted a different song. Then plug the mic into the stero system. After that it got smaller and became cd karaoke. Kinda the same thing as laser disc karaoke, but a smaller version. Now you got magic mic! Magic MIc maagic haha anyway, a device thas mad expensive, scores your singing, and has all the songs containted on one small computer chip. mMmm chocolate chips!

Was able to go to confession today, ah it felt so good to go. I felt like when you ahve to go #2 really bad but you hol it in cuz the toilets in public are so dirty. Then when you finally get to your own you let it all out and its a huge relief. haha jk thas sick. No it felt more like when youre outside working and youre all sticky, sweaty and gross. Finally you shower and youre in the shower for so long. Thas like confession! haha anyway it felt great to be clean again.


Dang my face got fat, or at least my cheeks. haha

"'Cause if it's over, let it go and come tomorrow, we will see so yesterday, so yesterday..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Look for Christ Our Lord in everyone and you will then have respect and reverence for all..."

THas a picture of Leslie and i @ goldilocks! yay! I like leslie cuz ive known her forever, its really great. I look at her like my other little sister. We can talk bout pretty much anything errthang. I help her and she helps me. Its amazing to see how much she has grown up. I remember when she was only in 6th grade. Now look shes already gonna be 16! Dang i must be getting old. Praise God for allowing her to become stronger, understanding and devoted to the church.

I went to swing dancing after corn's goodbye dinner. Miguel and i went, it was at this club called tijuana. It liked it for the fact, people were durr juss to dance. The girls were a lot older yet cool but getting asked to dance. Like anyone could ask them to dance and they were like sure. I had made this deal w/miguel when we got durr, that i promised i would dance. If i didnt then i would have to owe him lunch. I got in durr and i was intimated and became insecure. THe people durr were so hardcore, they were all doing it right and wha not. Well this asian chick probably like her mid 30s asked me to dance. I was im juss learning but alright. We edned up juss free dancing. Then i danced w/some other girl, she asked me to dance w/her so i did that. Then before leaving i got to dance w/that girl abby. Dang shes hot, lucky me! haha jk i had a good time.

Pray for me so i can bear fruits of goodness. That errthang not of GOd will be cast away. PLease pray that i become more patient and less angry. So i may have love in my heart and be God;s love to errone i come into contact with. Lord i ask you to please make me an instrument of Your peace. thanks!

The fruit of SILENCE is PRAYER
The fruit of PRAYER is FAITH
The fruit of FAITH is LOVE
THe furit of LOVE is SERVICE
THe fruit of SERVICE is PEACE


Agh the weekend is finally hurr for me!

"IM your man, youre my girl im gonna tell it to the whole wide world..."im done, im out God bless!

"Other things may change us, but we start and end with family..."

That was my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary let's see hmm 7 yurrs ago. I dont know if many of you were part of spv back then, but thas fr. O'Sullivan the pastor before Fr. KEvin. I wonder how the ol guy is doing now. Anyway, that was my family 7 yurrs ago, and it has only grown since then. My grandparents had 8 kids, which means i have 8 titos and titas! haha Look at the fruits of love my grandparent's have produced. 8 kids, 22 grandchildren and 8 great-grandchildren. Im excited to see my grandpa celebrate another yurr of healthy and strong life. GOd has really looked out for my family. Its great to know that errone on my mom's side we all live real close by. Actually one family lives in texas, thas the only one.

Ohana means family, family means no one gets left behind or forgotten...


My sister's first communion...

My confirmation back in 97...

Ha! Christmas 95...thas me and my crew haha

Halloween 91...oh man that was yurrs ago.

Thas my dad and my grandpa's brother, who will be turning the big 100 in January.

Dang, my kids and I are gonna live forever! haha

Survey
name = ja$on
piercings = naw
tattoos = yes one on my back that says 'isda life' haha
height = 5'6
shoe size =9-10
hair color = black actually im thinking of bleaching it again, havent done that in a while
siblings = 1 sister

LAST...
movie you rented = Agent COdy Banks(it was for the kids @ work)
movie you bought = the debut oOoh yeah! hahah
song you listened to = When God ran
song that was stuck in your head =That one hillary duff Jl was singing
cd you bought = neptunes-clones cd
cd you listened to = sfc conference one
tv show you've watched = fully watched 3rd watch
person you were thinking of = GOd, cmon now who else would i be thinkig bout?! haha

DO...
you have a crush on someone = nope sorry
you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah i wanna go to venice beach! lets go back to promenade!
you think about suicide =yeah juss yesterday jk nope
you believe in online dating = YEah in fact i was in juss in the pnoys4pnays chat room haha JUST JOKING!!
others find you attractive = they juss tell me ive gained weight haha
you want more piercings = yeah one on my bottom lip, ha! yeah right thas gay
you drink = yup
you do drugs = will work for marijuna said the homeless guy in santa monica
you smoke = naw dawg
you like cleaning = yeah of course, i cant have things messy or unorganized im anal like that.
you like roller coasters = yeah, yeah! the one @ ny ny was fun, member fred?
you write in cursive or print = print

FOR OR AGAINST...
long distance relationships = personally thas hard, but heck whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote
using someone = so for it, i use people all the time, let's see who's next on my list. haha joking...!
suicide = against cmon now
killing people = i can kill people w/my looks! ha that was corny!
teenage smoking = if they want to kill themselves by the time their 30 sure
doing drugs = if they want to go to jail sure
driving drunk = oh man if they want to kill people
soap operas = i like soap operas, i remember in line @ albertsons before jl's play pops and i were talking bout days of our lives. I was kinida catching him up on the characters...

FAVORITE...
food = as many may think no buffalo wings is not my favorite food. My moms fried rice
song = the bodyguard soundtrack! haha jk!!!
thing to do = talk, blog, online, eat, chill, sleep, read, teach, yell, run, sing, study, blog, tv,
thing to talk about =YOU! haha servant's heart, ther communities, blogs, food, churches, what to do
sports = I dont really gots one
drinks = mr. pibb/dr. pepper
clothes = my collection of sweaters
movies =Light it up
band/singer = dont got one of those
holiday = Christmas & 4th of july

HAVE YOU...
ever cried over a girl = nope never got that emo...yet.. haha jk!!
ever cried over a boy= naw dawg
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah back in 7th grade, i knocked this guy out....jk
ever been arrested = almost! well not really haha i aint thug

WHAT...
shampoo do you use = thermasilk
shoes do you wear = when i dress casual nice, my brown timbs, when i wurr dark colors and shorts then i wurr my black nike low tops, when i wurr cargo pants or shorts my brown converse, when i wurr red, my shox or jordans. When i get semi formal like @ the kappa formal then i wurr my kenneth coles
are you scared of = being shot

FAVORITE...
disney movie -pinochio
word - agh! haha jk
nickname - jfish, jay, fish, and the list goes on...
eye color - brown
flower - sunflower, roses, carnations

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
pretty - d0pe! haha jk
funny - as heck! haha
hot - in hurr!
friendly - as friendster is
amusing - yes, very
ugly - sometimes
loveable - loveable as a burr! haha
caring - curring as a curr burr
sweet -swe3t as the swe3t factory
dorky - ha yeah my answers answer that question

THE END-oh man that seemed like it took forever. Now im turrud!


Have you told how much you love your family today?

"As for me and my house, were gonna serve the Lord..."im done, im out God bless!

"That cross opened the door, the Bible lights our way, the Church holds us accountable and Christ is waiting..."

Hurrs another hollister ad for ya, by yours truly. My leg is missing, actually as the picture was being taken i was about to fall. Ha it looks like were doing some kind of dance or whatever. Speaking of dance that wade robbison show is pretty tight. ITs crazy cuz ill totally judge the people who come on the show and juss looking at them and think, 'they dont look like they can dance.' Then im proved wrong later in the end. The only thing thas gay bout the show, is errone dances the same style. Its always that 'pop' and 'twist' type of thing. Unless you get the white guys who juss go crazy doing whatevers.

I also like that newlywed's show, the one w/jessica simpson and nick lachey. Dang that girl is very oa, i think the two of them need to go to bof engagement and wedding encounter. I dont know if i could be w/someone who cant seem to clean up after themself. That one episode when she left her laundry juss sitting in a pile on the floor. That would kill me to see that, id die. id be so agH!!! I hate seeing messes. THough nick has a lot of patience dealing w/her thas fo sho. She reminds of some of the kids i have to deal with at work. IM sure thas one heavy cross to curry.

Skool and work was alright. I got two stupid projects to finish up so i can get it over with. I had my first sfc household tonite. It was i guess a joint household. So ive been told supposedly ive been transferred to kuya ariel's household. WHy did it not seem like that tonite? As i was leaving jordan said he'll call me to arrange household schedule...Hmmmm. I guess thas something i need to ask kuya ariel myself. I was agh! cuz they said be durr around 8pm so i got dur 810pm and errone else didnt come till about 9pm. Then we didnt start household till after 0930pm. Praise and worship was cool. We split up the a.c.t.s and someone lead the prayer for each portion. I lefr right after praise & worship cuz it was getting too late. The guy lives right in front of me, in those apts. next to centralia. I couldve juss walked but then i probably wouldve gotten jumped. haha

Juss came into my head right now. I was juss thinking some of the qualities i need my girl to have(if that ever happens). ALright as they saying goes, timinig is errthang or timinig is important or punctuality is a virtue. Yall know how i am w/time, meaning shes gotta be a punctual person. She also has to be clean and organized. I dont want a 'newlywed show' scene whurr i see her durrty laundry in the middle of the floor. agh! thas sick. Shes gotta be real chill and not high strung like i can be. haha Someone who is compassionate, and loves to serve others. Shes gotta like working w/kids and can handle being w/them. Meaning shes gotta have patience. SOme basic personality qualities, besides your basic honesty, trustworthiness, etc. cuz we all want that.

I need her to have God in her little puso. I would like her to love and trust God w/errthang she has. Someone who wants to be able to serve God through the church. Who wants to help build up GOd's kingdom hurr on earf. Someone who always sees the Jesus in each person. She needs to be able to sing so she can sing on my vmail haha jk Who not blangs blangs w/$$ but blangs blangs in her devotion and love for God. Someone who loves uncondtionally, w/no strings attached. Who's humble and lifts all the glory she may receive to God who deserves it all. Wow it seems as if im building someone of my own. All in all someone whos filled w/the spirit.

Agh these dogs behind us keep burrking and its getting annoying! Ive been impatient and irritable as of lately. I guess i juss tend to give in to my anger also which only makes it worse. Ill end up dwelling on it for a while instead of letting it go. So im trying to not let things get to me. Im trying not to be mr. bad mood guy, cuz i was this morning cuz of the burr. YOu know i realized i feel more relaxed praying spotaneously now, like i dont get all worried or skurred of what to say. On tues. i really felt the spirit leading through errword i said. Praise God He relaxed my spirit before prayer meeting started. So imma be late tomorrow nite since i got an SRE meeting.

Its crazy how many things we take for granted errday. How a lot of times things dont phase us. When something that we may not like ends up happening then we get that kick the in the butt. Thas when things finally phase us. I guess its true as the song goes, we dont know what we got till its gone. THough ti shouldnt or it doesnt have to be like that. God is constantlly surrounded us by so many d0pe things. Friends, family, shelter, food and a job(if you got one). More importantly He gives us Himself errday. His nudge on the shoulder to us, to remember to die to ourselves each day of our lives. Call a friend errday to say good morning to them juss as a constant reminder God loves them. Help brighten up someone's day by even the simplest 'hi.' Offer yourself up juss as Jesus offered himself up on that cross.

How much are you willing to offer up the Lord? oh man no yfc this wed. wha am i ever to do now? haaha Looks like i got a free day to rest unless i find some other group to go to.


How skurry is it, that Justin from American Idol and Sideshow Bob from the simpsons look alike?!

"Here's my story you can lean on me..."im done, im out God bless!

DaYsL33pR: what is this , an A&F ad

Actually gail its more less an Hollister ad! haha

"It is certain that the love of God does not consist in experiencing sweetness or tenderness of heart but in truly serving God in Justice, strength and humilty."

So my fun filled weekend comes to a conclusion today. I had to make the faces fuzzy cuz i dont have permission from the two other people in it to display their faces. haha jk Went to mass this morning as usual, fr. ray talked bout the new adjusments that are now put into place. Not a lot of big drastic changes, juss a few ones. I cant believe my granpa is gonna be 97 coming up this sat. ITs crazy cuz his brother who lives in la, is gonna be 100 in jan. Soooooo as you can tell imma be living for a long time(hopefully and GOd williningly haha). Its such a blessing though to see that he's healthy and juss still strong. He's a fighter alright. God has touched my family and has really blessed us.

I spent the afternoon at 3rd street promenade and santa monica pier. Fun stuff i must say, it totally beats staying home. So we drove over durr and we did the 'ju ju be way of finding parking.' This is how it goes, you pull up to whurrever youre parking and repeat over and over 'parking, parking, parking, parking' over and over and overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. haha Before you know it youll have parking! THough i finally said to miguel today while searching for parking, 'isnt easier to juss say a prayer, then to loose your breaf over repeating purrking?' So we got durr and we each ate our seperate dishes. I got chinese, miguel got great steak and potatoe and jeanne got some sandwhich. Walked around the mall for a bit then went to walk around the promenade.

Man its been forever since i walked around the 3rd street promenade. YOu see all kinds of neat and interesting things. Durr was this one guy in victoria secret trying to do a comedy act of some sort. He was alright then he got tedious, annoying and boring. I left for a brief moment to listen to this asian group sing. THey sounded like errother r & b asian group.

Durrs a lot of poverty at santa monica, i saw some guy who was in a wheelchurr and he had a sign that said, 'will work for marijuana' on the othe side it said, 'spare change.' Then i saw this other guy who happen to be filipino diggin through the trash can. HE grabs some food then runs off, next thing i know he's lying across this table half naked. I was thinking, 'hmm okay?!' i was able ot meet up w/my cousin who works @ victoria secret. SHe was telling me to juss follow her and talk to her. It felt weird being in durr.

Then we walked around the pier and that was fun. I felt like i was in a whole differet state. It reminded me of when mtv had their summer @ the jersey shore. Lots of rides, ate funnel cake, yum! Walked around and admired the dirty ocean water. Looked at the seagulls.

Alright thas it for now...i guess i got my first house hold tomorrow

3rd Street promendae is d0peness!

"I will never break your heart, i will never make you cry..."im done, im out God bless!

"There is no salary when you're working for God, but the benefits are eternal..."

Thas what the speaker said at clp this morning. Someone asked how the clp program is funded. The guy replied back the community members help fund the program. They donate their time and money into the program. He then went on to say, that the clp leaders/community members are not paid to be durr. Thas when dropped the there is no salary working for God, but the benefits are eternal. I was like wow thas really true, God doesn't pay you $ for all that a person does for the church. Though when he passes on, God will look upon that man, and hopefully God will grant that person into His Kingdom. That is something to really look forward to. So even though at times we may go on feelin unappreciated, it doesnt matter. The benefits we receive from the service is something that no money can ever amount up to.

Today was a fun productive day. I was explaning to jeanne and the mexican earlier that i like weekends that are productive. Weekends whurr fri-sun. something is always going on. Its coo going away from the normal scene. Being able to do something different, besides going ot cerritos mall or the block or what not. Though it gets physically tiring in the end, but its worf it.

I went to the clp at spv this morning. I asked the souls in purgatory to wake up for clp this morning and they did. Praise God. So i went durr but then i felt awkward going up durr and not really knowing anyone. I ended up going to the mexcian;s casa and picked him up to go w/me. While i was waiting i got to see a clip of their sfc conference the skits part. I only saw the prodical son one which i didnt understand until it was explained to me. Room c hur they had the progran was jam packed. It was so crowded, praise God. I didnt really listen to the talk, i juss kinda chilled out in the hallway.

Tita linda came up after her legion of Mary and told me she was gonna go through w/the program. Which is gonna be coo. This one is an all ministry program so you had errone durr. THough durr was a lot more couples durr, and not really many young adults. I snacked and snacked and snacked. I took tita linda home then changed then met up w/the mexican and jeanne to chill. We were trying to figure out a place to eat, besides the norm. Then the mexican suggested the grove in LA.

We travelved to the grove in LA and walked around durr for a while. Ate at the farmer's market that was a coo place. ITs an outside market w/all kinds of different foods you can try. I saw ashton kutcher and pharrell at the market place!! it was crazy cuz who wouldve ever expected to see celebs. I guess though most of the people who go the grove are rich. So after lunch we walked in and out of stores. Went to teh gap, abercrombie, nordstrom, pac sun, quicksilver...all those places. It was pretty cool.

We stopped by this church called St. Brendans, oh man that was a really nice church. I guess thas the home parish of Fr. JOhn Love, he was one of the speakers for the scrc young adult track. We came towards the end of mass, nice big church though. The stain glass paintings are a really d0pe. They had a tight statue of Mama Mary and Jesus also. So we left durr and went on our way to the Our Lady of Angels cathedral. I was really hyped to see the church being ive never been durr. The whole church was juss wow. The tapestries on the side and the painting of JEsus' baptism. I used that picture as my desktop background.

Before going home we went to ross and shopped around durr. I kinda got into w/the sales person. The mexican got this shirt that was markdown $12.99 then he found the exact same one wrapped for only $8.99. We went durr expecting to give it to us for $8.99. The thing was the wrapped shirt wasnt the size he wanted, but it was the right price. The other one was wrong price, right size. Oh man this feels like that game mastermind. Wrong place, right color haha anyway so i was aruging w/the lady cuz that didnt make any sense at all to give him the more expensive one if theyre the exactly the same thing. I was going to talk to the manager but we didnt want to cause a huge scene cuz durr was 10000 people behind us waiting.

WEnt home and watched the fight that i felt was fixed. Oscar was real humble though in saying that if he tries to fight it and it doesnt work out he'll leave it as that. It was a good fight though, juss a suprising ending. Even mosely didnt expect to win, he thought he had lost. Oh well i dont watch boxing that much anyway. I juss thought oscar shoudlve won, the judges were dumb.


Praise God for a great day!

"Why you over there lookin' at me, while my girl standin' here..."im done, im out God bless!

"A soul enkindled with love is gentle, meek, humble, and patient soul..."-St. John of the Cross

I like this quote cuz its a reminder on how God calls each and everyone of us to be. He calls us to have a loving soul and a loving soul only bears good fruits. Fruits of gentleness, meekness, humility and most of all patience. Ha patience something that i know i struggle with ALL the time. Whether its at work, at home or juss in streets. Each day as i enter parking lot 7 at skool, i pray that God will give me parking so i wont be late to skool and then i ask him to give me patience. Give me patience to help wait for the parking spot. To give me patience so i can bear fruits of gentleness when waiting. THough sometimes i get frustrated and im like agH!! hurry up! or agh! you took the spot i was going to get. I think we all should try earnestly each day to make sure our souls are filled with love. SO that way we can bear the fruits of the spirit.

Today was a fun day. First off i was able to sleep in till almost 10am. Which felt really nice being thas the only time i can sleep in now. Ahh how i anxiously look forward to fridays more and more. PRaise God i have fridays off to do whatever i want to do. So i pretty much spent the morning chillin and resting. I went to robbys @ 1pm cuz he needed me to bring some oil filter wrenches cuz he couldnt take it off by hand. I come to find out its too big for the filter. After giving up trying to take it off w/his hand, boss lady and i went to kragean to buy the wrench. We found the wrench and he happily was able to unscrew it. Agh i told you burr to listen to boss lady the first time! haha

We ate lunch @ islands at the malvern towne center. MmMmm islands! I havent had it in a while so it sounded pretty good. We totally devoured our food! After islands i went w/them to jewelry mart in fullerton to pick up their bans. I got a first hand look at wha they look like. Theyre totally gonna be blangin like no other next july. Make sure you wurr sunglasses at the wedding cuz oh man its gonna hurt your eyes! haha As i was browsing around looking at other vendors, this asian lady got real interested in me and asked if i was looking. Then tells me she has some nice stuff or whatever. I was like, 'oh thanks, but im not looking really...yet. I said try me in a month then ill be ready. haha jk i didnt say that part.

Then we got gas and then went to wamu to drop off their bands in a safe deposit box. This girl kept calling my name from above. I was looking all over thinknig whos calling my name. I look up and its the girl that almost went to lss. The one that was chentel's(tita marissa's daughter)friend. She asked me howd it go on the other day. Im assuming she meant prayer meeting. I felt bad cuz at teh time i didnt recongize who she was. I always forget who's who cuz i come cross so many different people and i only end up seeing them once. I guess if they dont play some major role in my life, i forget bout them. haha THen we went to spv to set up for apologetics. AHh yeah that was fun, it felt like ol times...::sigh:: haha BOss lady's funny she made up a new word, she said 'emburrising.' hahahaha

Came home took a nap then went to apologetics. I came after the review session cuz well i have a hard time paying attention or listening when that guy mike talks. He talks soooooooooo slow and then his voice is so montnous that i cannot if my life depended on it pay attention to him. Apologetics was good, there was a good turn out. Christian was durr along w/his sister, faith. THats so d0pe how he has all this stuff at his age. As i was telling his dad, the problem w/the youf now a days, is they awlays gotta be entertained. Errthang theyre fed is entertainment, songs, dancing, cheers etc etc. Big example is scrc youf track. The problem they lack is the foundation. THye dont understand whurr the church came from, who started the church blah blah. Theyre at the age whurr they can be easily swayed by protestants or other dominations.

As i was sitting durr listening to some of teh questions being asked, i thought gosh its so d0pe to be part of the catholic church. Praise God for tito jess and apologectics. Heck id be so lost today w/o it. But its so cool knowing the church as the whole truth and nothing but the truth. THe catholic church was established and founded by JEsus Christ himself, 2000 yuurs ago. How bout dem apples eh?! Its too bad so many people fail to see that or realize that. Even people who are catholics. People continue to bash the church and yet it still remains the number one church. It still continues to grow and grow.

Went to bjs tonite after w/the mexican and jeanne. I had this free pizookie dessert coupon i wanted to use. SO we went and i was really excited to eat dessert. NExt thing we see are popos errwhurr. Me being nosey and all went ot go see wha was going on. Next thing i know i see people walking out of the buildings. Then i hurrd the waitress arguing w/this customer that theyre trying ot get errone out of the building. APparently durr was a bomb threat to the restaraunt. THe mexican calls me and tells me to meet them @ the stop light going towards the mall. Unfortunately they forgot the coupon on the table!!! We ended up leaving cuz we figured itd take forever to back inside. THough i guess thas my fault for being nosey and trying ot see wha was going on. So we ended up juss eating and talking @ fridays.

My debut dvd i orderd came in the mail today. It was funny cuz jennif and i were juss talking bout that this morning. How she didnt get her dvd n the mail yet and she orderd it last month. Sooo now we can have movie nite and watch the debut! yay! This dvd also has the special features like fred's movie on it. SO fred you can pretty much can buy the one i made off of me for a low low price. SInce now i have the 'official' movie. yay! SFC starts tomorrow morning @ spv, its gonna be interesting to see wha kind of people will be durr. OKay thas it for now, until next time...


Happy 21st Birfday, Jay da banker!

"By giving me all you got Your love as captured me..."im done, im out God bless!

"I'd rather live in His world, then live without Him in mine..."

ahh! my entry got erased! jovei said i had to put this on my blog since seh did me a favor.

i, jason fish, have a secret. all those times i said i didn't like emo, i reallllyy do. i listen to it secretly..yes, you heard me right. i am a sad emo kid with feelings. i only put up a front to defend my emo king status. emo rocks like a mother.

Can you believe i out 1028 miles on my rent a car and it had 0 cuz it was brand new when i got it! haha

I continue to pray for the families who still grieve in pain. May God give them comfort in their time of need.


Gail says imma groupist, whatever that means...haha

"I rock so much ice, you need shades for a closer view..."im done, im out God bless!

Meet Monica errone!

"To be taken with love for a soul, God does not look on its greatness, but the greatness of its humility..."

Agh i have 2 projects to do for my 'interpersonal communications' class. One is i gotta interview someone of a different culture and write a paper bout them. Which is hard cuz errone i know is the same culture as me! haha Actually durrs my coworker whos muslim and imma intvw him. Hes not filipino either. SO i gotta find out errthang bout this guy in order to write 4 freakin pages! His social life, his love life, his economic life, his home life, his bank account # and his ss# heck his pin # too while im at it. Agh retarted project i tell ya!

Then this other one is a group one, agh sometimes i hate working in groups. FOr this group i had to show errthang. What to do, whos gonna do wha, i had to take control. ANyway, this project has to do with gender relationships. The topic that were working on, is cross-gender relationships. Like how many people have girls have guys as their best friend and vice versa. Now can they juss be friends? Or is durr a good chance they could end up being more then juss friends. SO thats gonna be an interesting topic to discuss w/teh class. My group has to put on a 15 min. presentation. Ahh i maybe coming ot many of you for your opinions and thoughts.

Work was cool, so they hired the new youf outreach coordinator who will start on oct.1 We should make a core group position liek that. haha youf outreach coordinator, theyd be in charge of bringing in all the at risk youf to prayer meeting. To help them get closer to God. yay! Then they hired the new rec leader. I had changed the vmail in my office the other day. Now it says, youve reacehd the desk of Jason Fish rec leader for the city of stanton. haha I dont want to change it cuz i always have to end up changing it again when someone quits. THough imma have to change it again next month probably when the youf outreach gets started.

I spent most of the afternoon @ work @ the teacher supply store buying stuff. I had fun i got a lot of d0pe bulletin board materials and wha not. Its cool shopping for that stuff, cuz i feel like im actually a real teacher setting up my classroom. I started to put up a lot of the stuff today. MOst of it went in that back room. It looks a lot brighter in durr cuz of all the posters and wha not. Yay! i cant wait to finish tomorrow! I remember i had errone helping me set up that room for summer. ANn came and helped. The mexican and jeanne came and helped. Though i had to hire the mexican...hahaha jk

Took fred w/me tonite to yfc he was useful to them tonite. He was part of their music ministry for the evening too. Well juss for one song, he played 'shout to the Lord' piano style. We did that one symbols game for an icebreaker. I remember playing that @ carson a long time ago. The games pretty fun, it came down to sh vs yfc and unfortunately sh lost. haha oh well. Then we did this d0pe project, that ive done but differently. Actually i like the way we did it tonite, its more creative and more livelier. We had to draw on paper what we were now, wha we were feeling, and other stuff. Then on the other one, we had to draw whurr we wanted ot be a yurr from now.
THen we had to shurr wha we drew and explain.

The point of the activity is #1 realizing we all walk in different walks. We cant say 'oh i wish i was i had the faith like so and so.' GOd created us differently we all struggle, but its in working w/each other to help overcome those struggles. Thas why you find yourself a community, like i have. Well for me ive got more then one community though. ahah Anyway, back to the point. #2 is to reach for your goals. To be who you said you wanted to be. So it was pretty cool. Imma try that w/my SRE class this yurr. Actually that could even be a core group activity or something.

Fred and i talked bout how errtime we hurr the song 'redeeming love' we think of ju ju be. Back when he was around he would always be strumming those cords to that song. Its kinda like i can see his spirit sitting nurr me singing that song. aww those wurr the days. ::sigh:: After yfc toni, mark anthony, fred and i went to in n out and ate. That was funny cuz we were talking bout harry potter and the sorcer's sasuage that mark anthony had eaten before. Then how toni experienced some crazy guy last yurr @ the in n out we were at. Talked bout the ghett0 long beach. ahh yes 'good times, good times.' The weekend is hurr finally, i truly look forward to sleepin in on fridays now. ahh yes!

So for the past couple days ive been getting these letters from the insurance of the lady who rear ended me. They sent me another one today telling me to fill out exaclty wha happened at the accident. THey even have charts on the paper to draw and show. Then they have a space to get witnesses signatures. Agh wha a mess! Juss admit you hit me, dont try to go around it. Durrs no way you can. YOu hit me and thas all durr is to it. Ahh i dont like mercury insurance.

Special shout out goes to gail, thanks for letting me be your friend! ?


Dont forget to pray for the souls in purgatory who died on Sept. 11!

"Look out weekend cuz here i come, because weekends were made for fun..."im done, im out God bless!

"The entire Christian life is about learning how to SURRENDER to God..."

yay! hurr is the pic i was gonna post like a while ago from the yfc meeting i went to. Anyway hurr is a group pic we took! My eyes are heavy and theyre starting to burn, good thing i dont got class till 11am. woo! i dont know errone in that pic, juss the common ones i see on wed. nites. A couple of those guys came down that wed. from the va baby before the big sfc conference. We took this w/monica's camera. Monica is the new link thas on my blog, check out her xanga! wooO! thanks monica for giving me these pics! ?

yfchexmix: wow.. my xanga seems so bare compared to yours.. heehee
JPFish187: haha i know its long
JPFish187: i write a lot i gues si go into detail bout errthang
yfchexmix: i wish i could write that much!

As i was reading this quote, that stuck out in front of me. Its very true how it says the whole entire christian life is learning how to surrender ot God. Thas crazy how that person boiled errthang down to that one point. I learned that it is in surrendering that we learn how to truly love. I struggle a lot w/juss surrendering my suffering, my hardships errthang i got to Him. Surrending is saying 'OKay God im putting you ahead of errthang else, YOuRE my main priority right now.' When i surrdender God finds me through the midst of errtrial. He finds that one lost sheep from the herd. Surrendering is being broken and rebuilt. It is in surrendering to the will of God that we quit playing games, lose all the masks, and stand exposed and shameless before our Creator. And it is in surrendering that God is allowed to love us more personally and more deeply than we ever thought possible while on this earth.

Right now...would you say your heart is totally open to God today or is hard like a rock?
I think thas another thing i struggle with is opening myself to allow God to use me. Praise God i was able to let go of errthang and let Him use me. I opened my heart up and surrendered to Him. I emptied myself out like a empty vessel and said, 'Here I am Lord.' I pray He continues to use me each and every day, and when my heart turns into a rock that He breaks me down and smashes it. I realized lately i lack a real personal realtionship w/God at times. I realzied having a personal realtionship w/God is more than juss going to mass and talking to Him. I realized that sometimes that ill follow Him and even tell errone esle too, but yet still not letting Him fully coming into my life, my struggles or my decisions.

Lord smash the rock of pride that gets in the way from serving YOu. Pour into me the water of Your Life. Open my heart Lord, my human to Your most sacred Heart because that is where true love is. Flow within me Your True love. Help me to remember YOur cross is a sign of true surrender.

It felt so good to be back @ prayer meeting. Gosh even though its only been two weeks, i felt like ive been gone forever. I was happy toni was able to come. yay! big ups to toni for coming tonite! I felt so relaxed and at ease i totally felt Jesus sitting next to me and telling me what to say. He help make my prayers His prayers. agh as much as i hate to say this cuz i know the burr is gonna say to me 'yess im tight, worship me' 'im passion burr, i died for isda's sins' Thanks blue burr for playing that song for me. agh you know youre tight already so i dont even have to say it. AGh but youre still 0 and im still 1 yesss! im winning! Praise God for allowing me to serve Him tonite.

BoOOO on errone who didnt answer yesterdays catechism question of the day. AGh burr is gonna loose this race! yesss! Remember the winner who answers the most questions right will get a prize!

Today's question...Please answer true or false to the following statement.
Angels do not have free willl they are controlled by God.

The cross is all bout surrender.

Hurrs toni and i 'attempting' to throw up 'BP' signs. haha




Thanks toni for coming to SH! Thank you God for using me as your instrument tonite!

"When you've got friends, to wish you well, you'll find a point when, you will exhale..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"It is not so essential to think much as to love much..."-St. Teresa of Jesus

Aiight the bur and i decided to truce and no more war. Were gonna be friends, so burr and isda are friends again. Agh so now he cant post anymore pics of burrs eating isdas and i wont post anymore pics of hunters killing burrs. Im excited for prayer meeting tomorrow! My co worker asked me today to switch w/her but i told her i couldnt cuz of prayer meeting. I felt kinda bad cuz its her son's birfday. OH well i have other responsibilites as well. I finally returned the debut dvd that i had all weekend long. I remember i would listen to the soundtrack and be like agh this sucks not being able to see anything! Not anymore thas fo sho! haha

i didnt get to go to St. Peter Chanel for mass as planned, today was such a 'rush, rush' day. After work i had to go and pick up this book i needed for skool. Then i had to go meet up w/leslie from SOL, the original plan was to meet in fullerton but we ended up meeting over hurr @ starbucks! yay! We had a good conversation, i know learned that SOL is mad laggers when it comes to rsvping to anything. They plan ahead yet take forever to get back to you. Crazy huh, doesnt sound like sol. Boss lady was durr and my ol friend from hs was dur also. I like boss lady's new look w/the glasses. She looks like someone but i cant think of who. haha

Then i had a fun convo w/abigal panasco. We were talking bout our communities and wha their names mean. I told her L & F i known for love & fat or love fat. Being all they do is make L & L bbq all the time @ their parish and make people get fat. haha so theyre called love & fat, not love & faith. Thye give people faith that theyll get fatter eating their bbq! haha All she could say thoug his how tight Servant's Heart was. HOw awesome that we have a name that represents how Jesus. How he came to serve others. I told her i know SH is tight like that. haha

Imma do something a little different but new this time. Im going to ask errday some questions regrading your basic catcheism. Let's see how much we remember. Today's activity is called, The Four Marks of the Church."

Directions: For each sentence, write a letter for the 'mark' that best fits.

O-One H-Holy C-Catholic A-Apostolic

___ Catholics all over the world profess the same faith.

___ Jesus invites all people to become fully his within the Catholic Church.

___The Church is sanctified by Christ.

The person at the end of the week w/the most points, will receive a prize! Ü

My Prayer
Jesus, I love You because you provide me with everything i need. You constantly bless me with many great things.
Please forgive all of my sins and help me to grow to love you more and more each day.
Also Jesus, please grant me patience when im angry, humility when i may not be humble, trust when i look down.
I pray for banne and leslie from SOl who need help right now. Lord guide them to let go and let You in.
I thank You, Jesus, for giving me strength each day to serve you.
I praise You for every cuz its You who I live for!
As i look at this picture i see my Jesus' face weeping in pain as He hold that cross. Lord teach me to be an example of You. To lead peopoe to be YOu. To serve people juss as You did. Lord God make me YOur instrument of peace. Teach me to love juss like You. Increase my faith and trust in You. May i be able to sufferr juss as YOu did. Help me to forgive juss as You did. Help me to be humble juss as You were. Grant me patience juss as You are with us. Help me to pray juss like You. For Jesus I am nothing without You.


Who does it say in the bible will be obtain mercy?

"I would hold ya in my arms and ease your fears, I can't believe it, I hadn't had a crush in years..."im done, im out God bless!

WHat do you get when you cross a burr and a hunter?

A burr on a rug w/an open mouf! hahahaha


Isda-1 Burr-0 yesss im winning!

"One cannot desire freedom from the Cross when one is especially chosen for the Cross."- St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross

Seeing this picture is a constant reminder of picking up the crosses i bear in my life. We all have crosses to hang on to, whether it be work, skool, friends, family, etc. Sometimes though the crosses tend to get too heavy. Even to the point where we cry out, PLease God take away this cross from me! It is too heavy!' Though often times we dont realize that certain crosses are given to us for a reason. As St. Teresa says, we cannot be asked to give up a cross when one is especially given to us. Though the suffering sucks, suffering is love. Suffering is being able to totally surrender one self to the will of God, so that we might become all He created us to be. In Romans 8: 17 it says, "The Spirit itself bears witness that we are the children of God,and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if only we suffer with him so that we may also be glorified with him."Hang on to those crosses, for all we know they could end up being blessings in disguise.

Ive made my decision that i will serve again in core for this next term. Im pretty sure though i will serve as secretary of fellowship. ONce my new term starts i have some great projects and ideas ready to go for this next term. I am very excited to see who will be nominated and appointed into those open departments. Advisors to Servant leader Aela Mejia have said the servant leader is seeking another term. THough she has not publicly made the statement yet, she is expected to within the next couple weeks. This term has gone by pretty fast. Praise God that He helped me carry out my term w/no problems. I think ive done almost errthang i wanted to accomplish. Oh well durrs always next term. Im also excited for the anniversary to come woo! 6 yurrs in the making...wow SH has come a long way, i remember coming up to prayer meeting the first time and hardly saw anyone in durr. Now look how much it has grown. I think ill reshow the power point slide show i made last yurr and juss change the 5 yurrs to 6 yurrs. haha Then juss add some more pics to it. haha jk

Im excited for SH cafe, even though NOT ONE community has confirmed w/me whether or not they will be participating or not. SO now i gotta do it the hardway and start harassing people w/phone calls and threats. haha jk Forreal though i juss wish people would respond back to the emails i send out, so at i least have some idea. So now core has to go out into the streets and start fiinding groups and people to participate. Though i know most groups will want to end up performing last min. Or when they get durr and see the other groups theyre gonna be like 'oh man we shouldve performed. ' Then imma say, 'sucks to be you!' haha jk

YOu know whas also coming up soon, my 1 yurr blog anniversary in nov. As you can tell from my archives ive been blogging for quite a long time. I remember when i had only like 5 links on durr, now i think i have at least 1 persons blog from errcommunity ive been to. I guess blog addresses are part of the contact info that you exchange as well as friendster stuff. Blog has changed the way people think dramatically jk. i didnt think id be blogging this long and look ive already have completed one whole book of blog. Ive blogged almost errthang that has gone on in my life. The times when i went to the atm, the times when i had the runs, the times whurr i was emo, the times whurr i was happy yay. wow...what a life ive been blessed with.

Im excited to go back to prayer meeting on tues. ive been Servants Heart sick as of the past couple weeks. No i dont mean like sick of servants heart but more less i missed servants heart. YOu know like being home sick or sea sick oh wait thas something different haha Forreal though, im excited to come back. I feel like ive been gone for a whole month. Calvin asked me earlier tonite where have i been cuz he hasnt seen me. Well last week i was @ liawang whurr i met some cool people. I figured that was gonna be my only time to get over durr to promote for SH cafe. The week before that i was SCRC core meeting planning out the last details of the young adult track. YOu know whatd be funny, if that guy will comes to prayer meeting on tues. If he comes oh man, then we know fo sho that its gotta mean something! Well juss have to wait and see.

ONe last thing...
Faith is not merely praying

Upon our knees at night;

Faith is not merely straying

Through darkness into light;

Faith is not merely waiting

For glory that may be.

Faith is the brave endeavour,

The splendid enterprise,

The strength to serve,

Whatever conditions may arise.



Happy birfday Mama Mary!

"I can search for all eternity long and find there is none like you..." im done, im out God bless!

"A little drop of simple obedience is worth a million times more than a whole vase of the choicest contemplation."-
St. Maria Maddalena de' Pazzi

Now presenting the new ninong and ninang to the new 'burger king!' yay! haha Jeanne and i went to knotts to take this picture. We took in fiesta village after getting off the hat dance ride. I had a dollar to waste so im like eh whatever lets make it fun and go into those photo boofs. So we took it, it was so ol skool you know where you take 5 different poses and then you wait like 5 min. for your photos to come out. Then we were rushing back to the kings to decorate for the suprise baby shower. haha naw actually we took that @ the baby shower today haha it juss looks like one of those type of pics cuz #1 its so close up and #2 cuz of the green curtain in the background.

I was planning on going to L & F tonite, being i had been durr in forever and they always come our way. I ended up falling alseep on the couch and juss knocked out for a while. IT felt good a small nap and stuff but now im tired again. My eyes are hurting but the blog must go on! Fo sho next sat. imma have to go to l & f for their prayer meeting. Moms' baby shower was fun, she came in to the house suprise and grumpy. Though im sure she had a fun time. A lot of her old friends from hs were durr so that was cool. A couple of the girls were wooo. The one i was kinda diggin was already takin though! oh why?! The decorations were done ghett0 quick style but actually look nice. hahaha

We played a couple of games, i won the first one yet someone ended up jacking my bag and taking it home! agH! i couldve used that frame to put a picture of someone tight in durr. THe game was you had to spoon as many cotton balls into the cup w/your spoon blindfolded. I ended up getting like 14 leading me to win the game! yay! burr played the second round and lost. yesss i won! burr-o isda-1. Then the other game i ended up not even really playing. We had to list as many baby items we could think of within 1 min. I ended up juss drawing pics of piranas and burrs w/robby. The other one was to guesstimate the size of jaymees stomach all the way around using streamer. I was real close on that one.

WHen i had gone to the market w/jeanne to get ice and soda, the cashier goes to us(jokingly)'so how long have you guys been murried?' I said oh 10 yurs and jeanne said since i was 10! haha the guy juss kinda laughed. Ended the nite talking bout stuff w/the kings, boss lady and robby. We talked bout skurry movies and deaf. Talked bout drowing and plane crashes. Pops gave this good analogie on ants. Talked bout a whole lot of funny things. Like wha would be your last meal before you die? Talked bout heart attacks and cancer. It was a real fun day! I got a random friendster message from fred's friend lelialni. It was quite unexpected but really nice message. I was talking ot leo tonite from liawang bout our SH girl to guy ratio. He told me that @ liawang they never really seem to get guys. Hewas amazed by how many we get @ our community. Funny stuff!

ShyAsnGuy: dude we never have guys
ShyAsnGuy: i dunno i guess uci guys dont like goin


Good job w/the decorations ninang they turned out nice!

"YOur spirit brings me liberty, YOur breath of life has set me free..."im done, im out God bless!

"Faith is acknowledgement, prayer and action all coming together for God’s glory. Faith is where humanity and Divinity meet. Faith is where we trust that regardless of what we WANT, He’ll always give us what we NEED. "

This is the message ive been receiving lately from Jesus. To trust fully in Him and there is no need to doubt cuz He's always there holding our hands. I really like how the last line of this quote says, Faith is where we trust regardless of wha we want, cuz no matter what He will always provide. Ever since couple weeks ago during yfc whurr we shurred our moments when we doubt and faill to trust, Ive been getting the reassuring messages to 'Let go and Let God.' Mathew 14:22-33,"Peter got out of of the water toward Jesus. But when he saw how strong the wind was he became frightened; and, beginning to sink, he cired out, 'Lord save me!' Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, 'O you of little faith, why did you doubt?'"I keep hurring the scripture passage ever since i had shurred @ yfc, ive been hurring a lot. God is saying, "Trust Me, I will not let you down."

I had a busy day, i was running around all afternoon from place to place. Im proud of myself cuz i went to mass this whole week! I havent gone to daily mass errday since lent. I finally figured it out in my schedule how i can get to mass errday. I pray that i wont get lazy and slack off. Got gas again this is like the 2nd time this week i got gas. This dumb neon eats up gas like no other. I miss my car, 2 more weeks and it should be done. THatd be d0pe if it was done by this week. Had lunch w/robby at whurr else but subway in westminister. We havent had lunch like that in forever long. Good times, good times. On the way home i stopped by target well to see what they could do bout my digicam not working. PRaise God cuz they told me they can juss do an even exchange for it. I was really happy cuz i had thrown away my receipt like 2 weeks ago too.

Fred called me on the way back to westminister and told me that the movie 'the debut' was already out on video. Oh man that was like music to my eurrs! haha After dropping robby back @ work, i checked out like 3 different hole in the wall video stores, but they didnt have it. I ended up finding it at the video store in the target shopping center! woO! i had to apply for a membership cuz i didnt have it. Went back to target and got the camera working again! yay! Hopefully nothing bad happens w/this one. Theyre gonna send back the old one cuz its defective. Then the mexican calls me and told me he has the sfc cd w/all almost all the songs i was looking for on sun. Especially the particular one i was looking for! So i went durr to his house and i burnt the cd. woOo! Then i dropped him off @ ross and speeded back to spv for 515pm mass. I almost forgot bout going to mass! I love the way Fr. Paul does mass its charasmatic but w/o the tounges. Fr. Paul is d0pe!

WAtched fred's feature film, 'Diary of a gangsta sucka.' Oh man! thas funny to see fred like yurrs ago. He looked like a filipino ice cube back in the day w/the dark sunglasses and stuff. Despite all the cussing and wha not, its a pretty funny. There was one part whurr he was @ some party and he approaches some girl and goes, 'aren't you tired?' She responds back, 'no why?' He goes, 'well you should be cuz youve been runnin around in my mind all day long.' Haha she mad dogs him and is like i gotta use the bafroom and freds like take your time. I love that movie the debut! woO after all the long 2 yurss of waiting for the movie to come out, its finally hurr! woOo!!!

Apologetics started tonite again, there wasnt a lot of people like last semesters class, but there still was a good turn out. YOu know how the first goes, orientation, syllabus, and testimonies. MmM then ray said meat and potatoes so i got thinking mmmm meat & potatoes @ apologetics yum! haha I juss like listening to tito jess talk cuz he keeps you awake. He's a d0pe teacher. Ha during break tito jess asked me to give a short testimony also. So i went up durr and said how its helped me w/teaching SRE and its also helped me become more knowledgeable bout my faith. Then durrs this one ol lady in the back and she yells, 'I cant hurr yoU!' I said 'agh! no.' haha Im suprised she couldnt hurr me cuz i usually talk loud enough. Its coo the mexican is going through apologetics again and he brought his mom too. Greg from L & L er F was durr as well as roland. I didnt recgonize him @ first cuz i havent seen that fool since youf alpha 01. So that was coo seeing him again.

After jeanne, the mexican and i went to applebess cuz we hungry after the 'meat & potatoes.' haha I havent been to applebess since after the youf lss last yurr. As i walked in it brought back to mind the memories of last summer. ::sigh:: haha It was funny when we walked in jeanne remembered the indian statue and how it looks like hes doing the actions to 'who builds the faith.' haha aww those were more memories...haha It was d0pe cuz our waitress was totally diggin the catholic shirts. Those have been getting a lot of props lately. woO anyway, she said how she had gone to ncfc 2 yurrs ago @ lbc convention center. I happened ot have a prayer meeting business card and gave it to her. Basically we invited her to prayer meeting on tues. nite. She thought that was nice, and she said maybe one of these tues. she'll see us there. tight!

So a lot of good things happened today, being able to get a new camera, getting the sfc cd that i was forever looking for, wha elese , oh being able to rent the debut on dvd! yay!!



Yay! the debut is out on video now!

"Come bless our land as we seek You, worship You..." im done, im out GOd bless!

“Do not distress yourself about your prayers. It is not always necessary to employ words, even inwardly, it is enough to raise your heart and let it rest in our Lord, to look lovingly up toward this divine Lover of our souls for between lovers the eyes speak more eloquently than the tongue.”

Here is second part of the Burr eating the isda story, the part the burr failed to tell...

The burr got excited cuz he thought he had won by killing and eating the isda. He juss thought he was bomb after eating the idsa,little did the blurr burr know that the isda he ate was magical. That the isda had special magic inside of him. As the blurr finished eating the isda, something was happening to him.
"OH whas wrong w/me? i dont feel so good now, agh my body is changing. I feel weirded out all of a sudden. Whas going on?! whas going on?!"

As the new changes were beginng to form inside the burrs body, he started to look different. He wasnt so big anymore, nor hairy.
A new burr was being formed, one that was full of love, peace and harmony. Little the blurr burr know that the isda turned him into a CURR BURR!!! The once fierce and mighty, blurr blurr of the forest became forest friend burr! A burr that brings friendship into the forest! Because blurr burr was now forest friend burr, the dark gloomy forest whurr the blurr burr once lived became the forest of feelings! yay!!!


"OH my, oh my! what have i done wrong?! ive been so mean and ugly that ive not curred for anyone but myself! oh dear thank you for transforming me into a burr that currs! a burr w/a tender, loving puso. From this day forward i will hold durr to my puso all the animals that live in the forest of feelings! Thank sooo much isda!"

The isda got back at the ol burr! I guess thas wha you get for being a 'blurr' burr! hahaha The new forest friend burr became the happiest and friendliest burr in the forest of feelings and lived happily ever after along w/all the other curr burrs and curr burr cousins! the end!




I won and turned you into a curr burr!! i won yess!

"I wanna be a Care Bear And fill the world with love..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Love is essential, so that without love all our efforts are in vain, no matter how much good we accomplish."

I was really irritated pretty much the whole day. SOmething set my mood this morning and i was bad mood guy for the rest of the day. Ask robby he knows, i was agh!!! w/errthang until i went to confession and now i feel better for the most part. I know i shouldnt let certain things get to me but sometimes i juss dont curr. THe above quote says w/o love is important, love means something and w/o our efforts are useless. We could so many good things but yet w/o love its dead. Juss like that faith w/o good works, those things go hand in hand. YOu know like their best friends, buddies. woOo

Im still trying to get myself into academic mode, agh! being back @ skool sucks, probably cuz ive been durr forever and i need to get out. Interpersonal communication was interesting, we played 'spin the bottle.' haha THough instead of kissing the person the bottle points to, you gotta shurr w/the group a sterotype bout yourself. Well the bottle would end up landing on the same people, so we ended up juss going around the room and shurring 3 sterotypes bout each other. Hurr is wha i shurred, #1-i look real quiet or mellow, but once you get to know me, im very opinionated and active. #2-Many people think im the only child only cuz my sister isnt active w/anything like me. #3-i lookyounger than i really am. PRobably the most often sterotype i get is, well actually it goes like this. Check it, i meet some new peeps, we talk get ot know each other blah blah.

person: "Hey ja$on what ethinicty are you?"

me: "Oh, im filipino and white."

person laughs and shocked: "OH really?! i thought you were chinese or koren or japanese or something like that."

me: fake laugh, "oh i guess you were wrong then huh?!" haha jk i dont say that, i juss usually say, "oh i get that all the time." Then change subject.

WOrk was alright, theyre doing the final round of interviews for the youf outreach coordinator. Geez, they gotta do a lot of work, im happy thas not my position. THas a lot of resposibility and expectations to fufuil. Once thyre hired theyre gonna shurr the office w/me until the neighborhood center is built in 2012. haha Finally ill have some company again in the office. I love my desk aurrea its very bright. People come to see and check out all the pictures that are on my wall. woo pictures! I got off @ 550 i ended up getting more irritated then i was this morning. So i went to mass and confession spc. I felt relieived, i saw my cousin durr. Though i didnt get to talk to him cuz him and his mom were staying for the rosary.

RObby told me he wrote some make believe story bout a isda and burr. I know it has to do fo sho w/a burr eating isdas. THough this blurr cant catch this isda cuz its too fast for the blurr! haha yess i won! Speaking of winning, we have this stupid game going as of today. Whoever signs on first and ims the person first wins. WHoever gets up to 10 owes that person a free meal. As of now im loosing @ 4 points and robby w/6. Then he calls me pretending to be boss lady on the phone later on. i was like agh thas stupid! Then he says i need to worship him cuz hes a god hence the small 'g' not big 'g.' He emailed me @ work and said worship me for i hurr you 24/7! haha

Looks like fred has made a new friend! YFc was fun tonite, we fellowshiped and went to boomers. I got durr and they were gone already, luckily this guy who was in hte building gave me directions. Praise GOd i didnt get lost! whew! MAde it durr and it was really fun. Yfc people are d0pe to chill with and hang around. Krystal and toni are SUPPOSE to becoming next tues. nite. THOugh imma not gonna set myself up for a dissapointment. The hit game was the 'dance freak' whurr its the game whurr you focus on hand eye coordination. Whurr you move your hands errwhurr under those circle things that light up. Durrs a lot of those dance type of games now. I wanted to do the horse race game but they didnt have it! agh booo! i remember gail and i did that @ D & b for my birfday! haha

As fred would say, i got 'pop' over my 'cool to be catholic' shirt. They all were diggin it over durr. Toni wanted one. Krystal was diggin the 'f.a.m.i.l.y' bracelet i was whurring and she was also diggin my rosary braclet. I told her i was excited cuz i was able to get a bible diary @ scrc. yay! She was happy for me, she said errweek i would look at it and think whether or not to bring to give to you since i dont use it. I hope it comes in soon. After boomers we all went to monica's house for their core team meeting. I went cuz errone else did. Durr was these yfc leaders one was from florida visiting and this other guy i guess hes from irvine but has been gone traveling ot other yfcs. We started off w/praise & worship something which i was hoping for and it became an answered prayer. I was able juss to let go and let God in, complete surrendar. Then the guy talked bout goals he wants for them. Really inspirational discussion, well it was only him doing most of the talking. I felt like i was at one of those pyramid schemes meetings! haha Then we closed w/some fun closing songs, like the one i was hoping ot hurr we sang it. yay! Imma make copies of Mother REginas talk and bring it to give next wed. @ yfc. Its a really good talk!

Being that imma be in core next term for SH, one of my goals for next term is to make myself more hospitable to the new person. Even though jennif said, that fr. faricy said in his talk buot prayer groups not to welcome the people in when they first walk in. I think they still need to be welcomed. So thas one goal for me at least to get to be more hospitable w/new people. I know how it feels like to be welcomed, ive experienced that this summer. So i want the new people to feel that same feeling i felt. Another thing id like for core to do, is work closely together w/other communities. Gosh its so d0pe to know durr are other communities out durr praising God all the time like us. ITd be great to do a monthly colloboration meeting from all the leaders from the different communities. We have that @ work all the community organization leaders in the city come together once a month and collorborate on projects. IN other words create a united nations of prayer/youf/young adult organizations. JEsus didnt work bymyself.

Alright well thas enough for tonite, i got a really coo tag from 'somerandomgirl' it kinda made my day, i know thas corny. Oh it was funny @ monicas house i was sitting at the table across from krystal. I randomly said oh krystal can i get your # i dont got it. Then we all started to laugh and errone was like ooOoh. Krystal said nice and smooth haha. Then others were like i gotta use that line next time. Then this other guy said why cant girls juss be honest and say theyre not interested rather than give me a wrong #. ha that sucks. Oh grace is gonna make a cd w/songs from their yfc conference they went too. woOo! Oh man their conference is expensive, all clp conferences are expensive yo! Its like $140 or something to register for the weekend. SCRC isnt even that expensive, crazy! Okay thas it, remember to be JEsus to each other!


Apologetics starts on fri! yay!

"ANd now that youre near, everything is different, everthing so different Lord. And i know, Im not the same, my life you changed, i wanna be with you..."im done, im out God bless!

"Christ is the husband looking at His bride (us) wanting to take our pain away. Christ is the faithful spouse Who did (and does) take that pain upon His own shoulders, in the shape of a cross. Jesus looks right into our eyes, yours and mine, and says there is no need for tears. It is the Lord who will never leave our side, teaching us every minute of every day how to more completely love others…even more than self."


Praise God for a wonderful day. As i was reading the above quote for todays entry, i totally could see the picture. The only part that sucked bout today was i ended up getting the wrong CD @ best buy. The song i thought was the one i wanted wasnt the same one! I guess i didnt know there was two different exact titles of it. SO now imam see if maybe my coworker will buy it off of me! haha so much for discernment gone right. Work was real chill, so the office i sit in remains empty w/juss me until they hire the youf outreach coordinator. ONce again i have ot change the vmail on my phone, thas like the 1200 time ive done it. Then they should juss change the name plate on the office from rec leaders to Jason P. Fish. hahah being that im the only who really sits in that office. Im hoping the guy who does the halls on the weekends wont want to take the rec leader position and then i can look for that cute girl. yay that cute girl who is real tall w/long hurr but is still cute! yay her! haha =D

I told my boss the talk bout @ 'whas your vocation?' He then asked me if i figured out what to do. I said not yet, but for now i know im called to serve. HE goes you know ja$On, the great thing bout that is, not only are you able to serve to the religous but yet youre able to serve in the public sector. He goes youre able to serve to this community hurr. I said yeah i know thas the same thing i had told my friend. I said praise God this job has allowed me to be able to serve in such a way. Its nice whurr this communtiy, this city i work for isnt all bout 'taking in as much as they can' yet they juss constantly give, give, give. Exactly the way Christ does to us. Always giving to us and supplying us w/our needs. I cant praise God enough for the blessings hes given me which has allowed me to serve.

Being able to serve and to reach out and connect w/other communities is something i really praise God for. Geez, half of my week is spent in other communities besides my own. I cant complain though, it nourishes me, it feeds me, it helps me. Praise GOd im blessed w/a reliable curr to get me hurr to durr. THough sometimes i wish i wasnt the only one going bymyself. Its always nice erronce in a while to have someone to go with. Thas why Jesus sent out his apostles in purrs not one by one. I look back and my life was not excitign as it now. Errday i have something to look foward to. I think sat. imma make my return to LF. Within this past yurr, God has allowed me to visit, Love & Faith, Singles for Christ, YOuf for Christ, Liawang, St. Lucy's Youf group, jay da bowlers bible study group, SOL , the group @ Holy Family and thas it. Each visit coming back with a new email address or blog address or contact # haha one day id like to visit oxnard but thas freakin far! thas all the way out in the boonies haha. Maybe one fri even SOl daygo. I still would like to see St. Paul the apostle up in chino hills, and that other one in moreno valley. God will lead me whurr to go next.

Liawang was fun tonite, i guess theyre still in their planning seesions, so it wasnt a real real prayer meeting. We prayed the rosary tonite and i was praying it, i could my spirit praying w/SH during that same time. I miss being @ my own prayer meeting. Its been two weeks since ive been to an SH prayer meeting. I almost forgot whhurr SH is! ha jk ill never forget whurr SH is cuz it holds such an important spot in my puso. Like i said during my scrc talk, i keep two pictures in my bible. One of them is SH to let me know that im never far away from home. Then uprm cuz those guy mean errthang to me. They also hold a special spot in my puso.

After rosary we were learning this tagalog song that theyre gonna sing @ the opening mass later this month. That was fun trying to learn how to sing it. Ha im @ uci so much now i feel like i actually go to that skool now. haha After rosary i was told to get inot the middle of the circle and close my eyes. I thought they were gonna do something like hit me or poke me. When i opened my eyes they sang me their 'welcome song.' I was like whoa haha but it was fun. I love how YFc and liawang sing their our father. Maybe we can trying learning @ SH one tues. Its really really d0pe. Then we sang a couple of songs, then i was asked to lead closing prayer.

We played mafia tonite after prayer meeting durr. They play it differently as usual, they have mafia, commoners, popos and doctors. IT dindt take me long to get the hang of it, and as a mafia tradition i die first. I threw a lot of god cards @ all of them during the game. hah I guess theyve gotten those before playing i nthe past. Then they threw a lot of emo cards. Well only the girls did. We played 3 rounds and it goes pretty fast. I remember when we had ot our mafia game last summer outside. I guess we were too loud @ sizzlers so they kicked us out. After we hung out @ alertos. its like our albertacos over hurr. It was alright w/me. OKay im starting to fall asleep hurr, i was real sleepy on my way home from liawang. Ill update the links later...too tired!


Fr. Paul is back hurr for a whole yurr! yay! I love fr. paul!

"You will hear my voice, I claim you as my choice, be still and know I am here..."im done, im out God bless

"The more faithful we are to our spouse, Christ, and the more that we seek to love Him above anyone else, the more that others will see that love in our eyes and the better THEY will be able to love. The pattern will keep repeating itself; it’s an outward sign and a perfect circle, just like the wedding ring."


I didnt realize i used yesterdays quote twice in the same week! oops! Well GOd mustve wanted me to remind errone, what one simple 'i do' had done. The simple obidence, faithfulness and trust that took place. This quote is i guess a continutation to yesterdays. The closer we get ot Jesus, by praying the rosary, going to daily mass, developing a prayer life, the more and more we fall in love w/Him. I remember Mother Regina's talk bout the one sister who was dying of lung cancer. Her finals days of her life, she kept saying, 'Mother He spoils me. He's juss so good to me, He loves me so much. I dont deserve all this.' One day MOther regina asked her for a particualar prayer intention she said, 'Sister cabrini when you get to heaven, can you do me a favor and help me w/me.' The sister said, 'Oh mother, please dont have too high of a steem for me. I havent been a good religous, .' The mother said, OH sister dont say that, i dont know that you havent been a good religous, i dont know whas in your soul, i dont know what crosses you had to deal with, i dont know wha graces you had, i dont need to know any of that.'

Mother regina said softly to the sister, 'All i know is that you and Jesus are becoming more and more one.' The sister said, 'Yes MOther its true and He spoils me.' Check it, for her to be able to accept w/peace her own fraility, her own peace, her own nothiness, her own weakness and to open herself to receive and own the mercy God inidating her soul. I think this true story of this carmelite sister is a great example of becoming more and more faithful to Christ. Of course we will struggle, of course we will fail, but thas not the point. The point is to continue to be like Him to show your love to errone, so that they may see the love of Jesus in your eyes and cant but help to fall in love w/Him as well. That they will follow your lead and show their love of Jesus onto others. As the quote says, itll become a pattern, a circle juss like a wedding ring.

Its funny what interesting things you can find online. Ive been trying to look for hmm like 3 or 4 of these christian songs that was played during the SCRC track @ tower and best buy. I want them all on one cd, but the changes of that happening were slim to none. SO i tried to look if at least majority of them were on one cd, yeah that kinda happened. I almost bought two cds @ tower tonite, though whew good thing i didnt. IT was one of those 'impulse' buying move. IM glad i didnt cuz we all know how expensive tower records is!

I picked up the sign stands @ the soratorios tonite and then i went to go drop them off @ work. Well i got to work @ hm around 8pm. Well its already dark by that time. I go inside the building and its freaking pitch black so i get inside and put the signs away. When i was inside the room where i had to put them away, i saw a light was on in one of the offices. SO juss picture, youre in this building and its pitch black. I got skurred for a min. thinking wha happens if i got kidnapped or killed and died. I started ot think wha happens if durr was someone inside that office. I crept up and look into the office and saw an empty chair turned around. I dont know how that light was on, but it was pretty freaky. Then i go out and im still kinda freaked out by the light being on. That was the only office that the light turned on. I walk out thinking geez my city is pretty dark and skurry @ nite. I thought oh man thatd be crazy if someone rushed up to me and juss knocked me out. I hate going to work @ nite bymyself alone cuz its freaky.

Had a nice talk w/banne tonite about how its juss so easy to dounbt and distrust GOd. Even though we may tell us 10000 times dont worry, dont worry ive got great things lined up for you. WE still tend to go that other way, which may lead to ugliness. When i think of doubt now i always refer back to JEsus calling peter to the waters. How peter started ot doubt, and he started to sink. That stroy is kinda like the movie peter pan. How peter was trying to get them to believe, yet they had a hardtime so they couldnt fly @ first. I learned that sometimes GOd floods our soul w/graces and prayer. He gives us a taste, a small sampling to get us into garden, yet He takes it away for our own benefit cuz were not ready for it. Otherwise if we did, it wouldnt be healthly for us later on.

Something to remember~
Its not about US, its about God's goodness. The weaker we are, the more frailer we are, the more poorer we are the more He can pour Himself into us. Complete surredender is the only answer.


Summer is offically over! aww

"And I will soar with You, Your spirit leads me on, in the power of Your love..."im done, im out God bless!

"What happened upon that cross 2000 years ago was the greatest “I do” in the history of weddings..."

Wow can you juss imagine that, reread the quote again in your head. JEsus bounded himself to US over 2000 yurrs ago on that cross to be w/us. I cant wait to see the movie the passion when it comes out. El juego said the guy who played in 'The count of monte christo' plays the role of Jesus in the movie. Jesus gave errthang up for us. Juss to be with You and I. That truly has gotta be the greatest 'i do.'

Man scrc is over already my eyes are burning and i caught the sniffles probably for not getting enough rest. Since i was up from 7 to 2am. Then woke up @ 7 and then go on the go again. SCRC is so great, over 12000 catholics coming from all over the world to offer their praises to GOd. I told some people that this weekend was kinda like a catholic city. YOu know that games the sims where you build your town, the people and all that. Well this weekend was like that people juss walking back, many of the same faces youve been seeing. Errone all happy and juss chillin. Thas probably what heavens like. Or i always like to think of scrc also like the catholic olmypics. Especially during the mass when they do the parade of banners. Thas like the different people from the different countries. haha i guess its juss my imagaintion ha

Todays talk was really good. I go a lot out of it so im going ot shurr it w/you. It was another panel w/the topic of single, married or the religous whas your vocation? SO they had someone who was single, a couple who was married and a priest and a deacon soon to be ordained next yurr. The girl who was single was happy she was and gave us a testimony bout herself and wah not. Hur are some notes from the talk... that nothing is more attractive then holiness. Lf likes to say nothing is more sexier then holiness! haha thas funny. Tha means all the guys in uprM are juss hella sexy then! woOO! haha Constantly repeat this simple prayer, 'God help me fall in love w/you.' The more and more you say this the closer youll build your relationship w/him. Marriage is a coventant established between man & woman a partnership of their whole life, based on unity open to reality.

What it means to be in love...Spirituality must be complimentary. Goes back to that whole, holiness is attractive! Pray how to approach your game! haha jk imagine praying this, 'Dear God, help me to use the best emo pickup line on this girl.' hahah YOure suppose to pray on you approach the person. I never knew bout that one. God doesnt give you something only to take it away. Discernment should bring joy and fruitfulness, 3 persons of the discernment: The person himself, the group one joins. the community as a whole. Imma blog maybe tomorrow or sometime this week the notes i took from mother reginas talk. I really like how it says love is being able to compliment each other spiritually. Where you bof bring something into the relationship.

Ha i saw the video for b2k called 'what a girl wants...' the video is retarted i tell ya. One of them is driving in a curr while explaining to the other guy wha a girl wants. Then towards the end of the video they say something like, 'Yo wassup ladies this is JBoog,and Im a leo..yea and I know exactly what it is..that a girl wants..believe dat..yea' haha i thought oh man can we get any cornier hurr?! 'wassup ladies this is the big isda hurr and yeah thas right i know wha you girls want. holla at me aiight' haha or or or whatd be funny if uprm did video like that! haha thas funny...'yo girl its uprm blurr hurr and yeah imma tell yall right now, i am wha a girl wants.' 'Yo..this uprm rockr, and Im a scorpio,and I know exactly..what a girl wants' 'Wha up shawty, this be yo man uprm fred and i be a gemini. I know wha you girls need and want.' 'Uprm game for 03 and im scorpio. Ill give you wha you want' 'Yo Yo..wassup ladies this arch,and Im a scorpio.,and I know all the things that a girl needs..ya heard..aiight lets go fellas...' ha thatd be funny.

So the young adult track @ scrc seemed to be pretty successful in my eyes, being that it was the first yurr. Praise God errone in the core team was so open to the spirit. Praise God i was given the opportunity to be part of the core team and to serve. I know there were many other people who said yesterday they wanted to be part of the core team for next yurr. Im amazed on how big the youf track had grown since last yurr. I cant remember the exact figure but i know it was in the thousands. As i was walking back and forf from one end of anaheim to the other(walking from the coast back to covention center)i saw how many lives were probably touched. I pray that they take wha they learned and spread it. As for the young adult track durr was 400 people registered, thas really d0pe for being it the first yurr. Im sure a lot of young adults were excited when they found out durr was gonna be a young adult track. Praise God for juss a d0pe weekend.

YOu know whatd be funny like before mass, during the chill time, if scrc made a mascot. Then the person be getting all wild in the arena. haha That group St. Paul the apostle from chino hills man durr juss on fire. I was laughing as i passed by their group during lunch time. THey were in circle playing 'boom chicka boom.' Thas soo d0pe! I went over to L&F during lunch and their community fed me again! Theyre hardcore they had chicken nuggets, lunch meat, bread, fruit and drinks. I thought dang thas tight. SOl look like red ants on sat. cuz theyre all wurring their red shirts and theyre ususally scattered all over the place. So they look like red ants all wandering around errwhurr. L&F whurr their bright yellow shirts and well they looked like yellow ants haha jk. I guess they could like bees buzzing around.

During mass it was funny, i thought the bishop had said after opening prayer to take the time out and 'applause' so i started to clap. Then jenif starts laughing and clasps my hands together saying, 'no he said take the time to pause.' hahahah i was like ooohh no wonder no one didnt start clapping. Achie ran into will again yesterday. As she was walking back to the young adult track he crept up behind her. I guess they still didnt exchange numbers while they were talking. So during mass i said 'Lord if you want us to
watch out for this guy for some reason then itll be in your will.' Ha after mass was over i was walking out from the main entrance into the arean and i ran into him. Coincidence?! naw...ha especially not after mass. I asked him for like contact info. so when we have SH events i can let him know. He wrote down errthang, his phone #, his address, his email address, his pin # and ss#. haha maan.

I bought a lot of stuff @ scrc swapmeet this weekend. A lot of useful stuff too, especially that book on activities relating to the CCC. I was able to get two bible diaries, one for the rest of this year. Hopefully itll come in soon, so i could use it. A crucifix since i lost mine, a scapular since i ended up loosing that one also. A rosary bracelet, i wanted one of those cool ones bev from sol had. I guess they got for going on a scavenger hunt. I also got a coo to be catholic shirt, a cd and mother regina's talk. I saw some good books, but i couldnt buy them cuz im so behind on the books i got now. Most of the stuff i bought anyway were juss small items, nothing real big.

We all hung out @ the towne center later on. Ha i had gone to the bafroom to blow my nose, when i came out i got a text. I opened it and it said' hey ja$on its grace juss thought id say whats up take care.' It was from fred. I said 'agh that was dumb' then they alll were laughing cuz they figured thats exactly wha i was gonna say. Then aela got one of those 'inspirational' texts from nariza, then pb said, 'atche look on the back of your phone.' So aela turns it around and then pb asks her if she sees the hallmark symbol on the back. hahah it was funny. It was probably 'you had to be durr' moments.

Im not getting the rest i should be getting so now im starting to feel like blah. Well actually its juss my nose thas all stuffed up off and on. Good thing i didnt get this during scrc otherwise i wouldve felt like crap! I remember i started ot get sick during scrc last yurr, it totally sucked. I think next core term imma plan a 'friendship games.' Well actually i would like to plan one. Charisse said that yfc is hosting a bball tournament. I guess they were gonna do a friendship games, but then i dont know wha happened. Then she said that if yfc isnt gonna do one, then SOl was thinking of throwing one together. Nick wanted to get al lthe different community leaders and create a 'united nations' of prayer groups. haha That sounds fun though a great way to fellowship and juss get to know people from other communities.


Till next yurr SCRC...thanks GOd for juss one d0pe weekend! yay!

"Cause i've learned in the past, that love will never do without you..."im done, im out God bless!

"Marriage is not just about finding someone “you can live with” but in finding someone who “you just cannot live without”

Thas what i need to find someone who i juss cannot live without...hmm maybe i already have found that person! ha yeah right. Anyway another exciting day at scrc! Geez ive been up since 7am this morning and well i know fo sho imma be hella tired tomorrow. So tired that when i come home imma probably knock out. Praise God i got one extra day to fall back on though! yay labur day! Imma make sure i go to see robby that day too so i can win! yesss! haha Scrc was great today. Saw many new faces and some old ones. Carson was durr that was fun seeing them. SOl of course was durr. I was suprised to see St. Paul of the cross, the group from chino hills. I dindt know they go to scrc. Christy and i met this one group from woodland hills called light of God or something like that. They were a youf group, they meet on thurs. THOugh they didnt see too interested in talking to us. Christy's funny she goes to them, so any of you guys into friendster? or have friendster? haha i thought that was funny.

Dang i wish scrc had a masquerade ball thatd be tight! Then you can be hiding in your masks and go up and kiss people well juss cute girls. Itll be a 'kiss and run' haha you kiss them and run. They wouldnt be able to find you cuz durrs be too many people and theyd get lost in the crowd. I had to help direct people wurr to go today for the young adult track. Dur was a lot of people which was pretty good being it was the first yurr. The first talk was a panel talk bout relationships and stages. The first speaker was boring cuz it seemed like we were being lectured. YOu know he was reading straight from his paper. The other two speakers were good. I didnt get to go to the other talk today cuz i was in line for confession. WHich leads me to a funny story...

So i was standing in line during confession and then this guy sees my ribbon says young adult team. HE asks hows that track going and stuff like that. Well we ened up engagaing into a small conversation juss bout life about ourselves. As i was talking to this guy the first person that comes into my mind is achie! After talking to this guy i couldnt wait to tell her cuz i thought hed make a good match for her! I invited the guy to JEsus and Java tonite also. I told achie well see wha happens tonite, if he comes to Jesus and Java it must mean something. Sure enough he did come! The two of them talked off and on quite a while. I wanted her to exchange #s but this other guy got in the others way. Boo!!!!! The reason why i thought hed make a good match is well fist off hes catholic and totally devoted. (Hey that sounds juss like the guys in uprm). HE does interning @ some orthopedic hospital, so the same field in a way as achie. He was in the military and then startated like small prayer groups w/this soliders. WHich means hes on fire bout this faith. Thye talked a lot tonite @ JEsus and Java, lets pray something will catch his attention and well see him again.

Funny story, robby and i were waiting for banne and boss lady to come from adoration. Well we were bof starvnig then robby said im hungry. Next thing we know 10 min later the convention center stafff asked us if he wanted free hot dogs cuz they were gonna throw them away. We went up durr and got like 6 different hot dogs! it was so funny the Lord provided! haha we were feasting on those hot dogs on the reals! hahaha it was like a miracle or something! praise God we didnt have to buy outdoor fast food. I was happy cuz i got to curry the scrc banner again this yurr. I love curring those banners! BIgs up to fred on his JEsus and Java testimony. I got some compliments on it. We were running behind schedule but we got through errone. Jay from SOL;s testimony was juss d0pe. OKay those are some highlights for the day im tired now. Thiis weekend ive been hurring a lot of sfc praise & worship songs. How funny.


I hope we find that guy for achie again tomorrow!

"YOu have turn my sorrow into joy..."im done, im out God bless!

"What happened upon that cross 2000 years ago was the greatest “I do” in the history of weddings..."

I picked this quote cuz it reminded me of Mother Regina's talk from SCRCthis morning. Praise God for a great first day @ scrc and the best part bout it, is that its only the first day!!! yay!!! i got a lot of stuff today alreayd at the little shops. I bought 2 rosary braclets, 2 bible diaries and a rosary. Im excited for tomorrow, its gonna be a long day of course but defiently itll be worf it! JEsus and Java is tomorrow evening and ive got nothing really prepared. I contacted all the groups except for one, maan when i was calling these people some of them were giving me their whole life story! haha I hope i dont get nervous tomorrow evening, though i probably will. Im even giving my own 'SCRC & Me' talk. ahhh! i dont even know what to say bout that. Oh you know whas coo is that in the scrc program they have this song called, "Jesus we enthrone you." The same song that ive sang before @ yfc. I hope one of the music ministries end up singing it.

After the fun day @ scrc w/jennif and dave i came home. I went swimming in my pool for a bit and it was freezing cold! Cleaned up and went to dinner w/jeanne @ bjs. We decided once a month were gonna have a 'jeanne and ja$on' nite! yay! haha Err29th of the month were gonna try new places to eat and juss talk. Tonite was fun we shurred this cajun shrimp pizza along w/pineapple and sasuage. Though we easily got full cuz we ate spinanch artichoke dip on top of that! Well when we got durr the place was packed! SO we had to kill an hour walking ot the cerritos mall. YEha we literally walkede from bjs to the mall, even though its only across the street. We walked around and ended up seeing boss lady and blue blurr durr! haha hey that rhymes! OH man i saw this really nice nautica hmm sweater/jacket that i wanted. IT was freaking $90!!! it was so nice though. Perhaps itll go on sale and then i cna buy it.

Imma start my other novena to St. Therese of the little flower tonite. This will help give me an answer to my discernment ive been praying for. OKay i need to sleep cuz i ve got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. A really long day, no doubt bout that. Oh you know whas coo @ the sfc conference the sfcers went to, they have masquerade ball and then a dance also! Thas tight! Though no wonder their conference is a $1 million dollars to go! Sheesh! Though it sounds like d0peness, dancing w/different people. I told jeanne too bad their conference isnt nurr by whurr we could sneak into the dance. Thatd be fun if it was cuz then id get all crunked up in durr! Which means id be able to get my groOve on w/all these people weeeeeeEe! Its gonna be interesting to see all these young adults tomorrow. I think well get to see a lot of the different prayer communities also! yay!!!!



I looooooooove SCRC!

"And as we worship let us build a throne..."im done, im out God bless!

"To fall in love with God is the greatest of all romances; To seek Him, the greatest adventure; To find him, the greatest human achievement." -St. Augustine

Sorry i dont have any new pics to post until i get the ones i took at yfc. I am exhausted ive been on the go since hmm 8am. I went to pick up my check today. Went to skool deposited it took care of that stuff. Went to stop by the daycurr to check on things over durr. I miss that place, though i know i cant come back. I cant do it physically w/errthang else im doing. I dont think my body will be able to handle those kids on fridays. Stopped by st. peter chanel to see if durr was confession going on but durr wasnt. Went home to get some stuff to bring to the beach. PIcked up the pizza for work and then went to the beach. THe beach was fun, my boss was durr and he went in the water. Oh man i didnt expect him to get int he water. I love going to beach and juss relaxing. Juss chilled and watched the kids and enjoyed the view.

My coworker who ended up quitting today was complaining to my other coworker bout the table. My boss brought this 6' table to put the pizza on from work. Well the girl who quit was saying like it wasnt worf carrying and its better off getting a portable table. This is mean i know so i told my coworker that i was gonna make her carry part of the table since she likes to complain. So as we were packing up and errthang i asked her to help get the table. WEll she only went a few steps and ended up quitting. Yeah i know it was mean, i guess my idea kinda backfired on me! Unloaded errthang and juss chilled for a while. BEing that she quit, i gotta work thurs. nites now. Which sucks now i dont want to work the evenings.

After work i went home for a bit dropped off some left over pizza and then jammed to get over to confession. Fr. Greg pretty much answered my question bout some stuff. HE told me to read proverbs 27, i was dissapointed but well see what happens. Mass was good, i gotta get into the habbit again of going to daily mass. MAybe ill try to go @ 8am again. When i did going to mass as my lent offering, i ended up sticking to it except messing up twice. Imma see if i can try doing that again. My rosary that i hang over my mirror broke again. Well juss a bead and a half broke. So now imma put my rose smelling rosary over it. Ive been going to st. peter chanel lately for adoration and its helped me out a lot. Praise God for that. Saw fred and babyvee at mass, but didnt a chance to talk to them cuz they stayed for the rosary afterwards.

After mass i had gone home and i checked the sunday bulletin to make sure the sre meeting started @ 8pm. I checked and it said 7pm! i was like agh! im so late cuz i told achie and jeanne to bee durr @ 8pm. I had to call them and straighten things out w/them. Good thing they were bof durr already. Sre meeting went well, im excited for another yurr full of learning and new challenges. Achie and will be teaching euch III 6-12 grade. I hope i get some new kids in the class, though its gonna be great seeing the old ones. Jeanne will be right next door w/me teaching 6-12 euch II w/the mexican helping her. I told jeanne thatd itd be d0pe maybe one nite whurr we can combine classes and do an activity. Tues. imma teach confirmation I, as for my aide i dont know. The policy for the diocese is errteacher must have an aide. The aide is for the teachers own protection agaisnt kids who might accuse sexual harassment.

So for my aide, i didnt know who to choose or ask being that i cant take anyone out of sh. A name came into mind and it was leslie from SOL. I called her up and she was interested, praise God so shell get back to me next week. HOpefully she'll take it. I juss need an aide who is on furr w/their faith. SOmeone who knows, understands and practices the teachings of the church. NOt juss any random purrent wholll only want ot pass out papers and pencil and want to learn stuff. I need someone who i can rely on to take over the class in event that i may not be able to teach one nite.

Picked up some metal sign holders @ work then dropped them off @ the soratorios. Talked to banne for a while then i was off again. i was debating whether to go to savio for adoration or juss go home. i wanted to go to adoration but juss the drive over durr. I forgot bout st. peter chanel having it also. As i was driving i was talking to leslie from sol on the phone bout it. SHe said juss go and chill over durr. I did ending up going and it was realxing. I spent a little over an hour over durr juss letting errthang out. Talking and juss lifting my heart up to him. IVe been wanting to go or been meaning to go to St. DOminic Savio for a while but juss never made it. Im glad i ended up going tonite. As i was praying i said, "God thatd be funny if someoone from sh came hurr.' Next thing i know i see aela and archie walk in the door! hahah that was funny. HAd a nice conversation w/jeanne outside of sre meeting tonite. We talked for a long time, until we bof had to go pee really bad! TOnite wsa juss one great nite.


SCRC is hurr! yay!!!

"I get the chills when you in my sight feels like it's meant to be right..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"The cross is the ultimate example of God “raising the bar”, not lowering it. The crossbeam is the wooden “bar” that God raises up reminding us never to lower our bars, never to set human limits upon our God-given call to forgiveness..."

Look errone a picture whurr i dont have my mouf open! haha This is that week after summerfest was ova, this is wha i looked like w/no hurr. We were at the park learning how to put a tent together. Thas my coworker on the bottom and those are some of the kids i work wif. They had fun trying to put the tent together and learn how to take it apart. Since im on the topic of work, the interviews for the youf outreach coord. went well so i heard. They found two guys they really liked and is going to ask them to come back for an interview next week. Im interested to see wha will happen. As for the rec leader position im hoping my boss will be able to see all the people who applied for the position. Then hopefully ill be able to find that cute girl who applied.

Speaking of her!! check it, i was at the library across the street w/my kids. We were all getting some books for some SSR. Well low and behold durr was the cute girl standing right behind me! i was like whoa!!! OKay so she doesnt have the mulan hurr but shes still freakin hot! haha oh man i dindt want to sturr but oh man. Im pretty positive thats the girl who applied for the job and has the ba from ucr in psyhco. blah blah. I shouldve told her that the positiion is reopening and to re apply for it. Hmm maybe GOd wants her to work w/me thas why i was able ot see her agaiN! hahaha jk but forreal though it was the cute girl. I think she was rechecking out some book. I forgot what the title of it was. The girl is tall i tell ya, but still cute.

Ever since fri. nite ive been having a problem w/my digicam. When i turn it on it says, turn power off and on again. Well i did that and the same message appeared. I looked in the manual and it said problem w/lense opening, but it doesnt say how to correct the stupid problem! so im now like agh!!! cuz i cant take anymore pics! I wanted to take to scrc this weekend also. agH!! Maybe someone will know how to fix it. I guess i shouldve bought it at some 'electronics' store rather then juss a regualr retail store. Im hoping that ill be able to get fixed. THas only a month old!

This past month ive gone to yfc errwed nite. Toni and krystal said theyll come sept. 7 not this tues. coming up but next. GOing to yfc has helped me grow a little bit. The talks/group discussions that we shurr or have are tight. ITs coo how errone shurrs their experiences bout their different walks in faith. Tonite the topic was bout 'Doubting/Trusting.' We read the mark 9:12-26 bout the mute kid possesed by the evil spirit. Then durr was discussion questions like wha has happened when you have doubted and how do you handle it. Then what bible scripture reminds you bout trusting in God and keeping the faith. This time we split up into the 'brothers' and the 'sisters.' When it comes to shurring i get intimidated and skurred sometimes. I ended up shurring anyway. I shurred how i tend to doubt God a lot. Durr are times when i feel that im not fully trusting in Him, even though He will providef.

I talked bout example of being in exile, i was skurred and doubted God that things wouldnt go back to normal. That the situation that i had put myself in was going to stay like that for a long long time. Yet it was during those struggles that i was able to hold on to Jesus tighter then errbefore. i shurred how i love running to Jesus w/my problems w/my stress. Going and seeing him @ the blessed sacrament. Then i shurred the verse that sticks out was matthew 14:22-33 bout peter walking on water. When Jesus summonded him. Or when thomas had doubted that Jesus had really returned. We all have our moments, but we gotta keep holding on and never letting go. Like the song goes, 'Hold on to Jesus, He's holding on to you..."

I dont mind the drive over to uci errweek, its like driving to carson errsat. I think w/all the shurrings as well as the praise & worship its helped me to grow more. Its great to shurr and talk bout our walks w/people around your age. How you help one another grow in God's love. Im really feelin the quote for today. You read it and youre like wow thas so true. The cross is the perfect example of God saying dont lower your standards to someone else. HE calls to forgive and accept the person for who they are. To love them unconditionally. Not to set limits on another person cuz they may have done you wrong.


Yay! i get to chill w/heif on friday!!! wooo!

"In comes the winter breeze that chills the air and drifts the snow and I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Understanding is not necessarily believing and believing is not always understanding..."

Wow im tired, its been one long day for me. Skool was long since i had to stand in the add/drop class line forever long. I accidently dropped two classes on webstar and it wouldnt let me re-register cuz there was duplicate crn #s. Errtime ive been wanting to go the annex to add the classes the line was juss long. I had no time to wait forever long, so i did it today. That look forever! oH man i was waiting in line for like 20 min. Then when i get to the person handling my registration he said the internet class i droppped i may have to get the instructors signature even though she said via email that i can add. Finally got that taken curr of, then power 106 and sunkist were in front of the admissions and records quad area giving out free sunkits and posters. Power gave away stuff if you participated and showed them your talent.

WOrk was alright, same ol as usual. I have these two twins who come to my program, theyre bof boys. WEll it was durr their birfday, so i got a cake and icecream tied balloons to the table lit 18 candles. 18 cuz they bof turning 9, then we sang happy birfday to them. I felt in a way i was setting up for my own kids birfday party or something haha it was funny. It was very last min. put together but they were happy. SO after we feasted on coffee cake and ice cream i had them bag commodities. They totally loved doing that stuff. THey got majority of it done too, which i ended up finishing along w/the rest of the kids later. Im happy thas out of the way. Ahh im glad that this week is the last week for park programming then i can concentrate on setting up room/lesson plan for the skool yurr. Were going to bolsa chica on thurs. so thas an easy day for me. Right after skool, ill be hittin up the beach! yay!

This is one busy week for me, last nite i was at the healing mass. Today i had city council which they approved the new city employees benefits. SO now that means in dec. imma get that $400 bonus check at the 'city managers disrection.' That will help out a lot! Now that i got beneifts i get paid for work on moN! yay!! I was talking to a friend who works for buena park as a rec leader, they dont get paid worf anything. He;s been durr for 4 yrs already started off as a lifeguard, then rec leader and now does ball park maintence. Hes getting paid under $9 and they dont even get benefits. HOw much does that suck! boo buena park! Anyway tomorrow as usual imma go to yfc, then thurs. i got sre meeting.

WE had our last scrc core young adult track planning meeting. It was long, but it went really well. I kept dropping food all over the place, maybe i was juss overlly excited and hungry at the same time. As of today durr are 275 registered young adults coming to this conference. Too bad the whole sfc ministry has a conference that same weekend. I know a lot of the young adults especially at yfc wouldve gotten a lot and enjoyed the young adult track. Im excited for the Jesus and Java happening! its gonna be like a mini-preview to Servant's Heart Cafe. Im giving a small talk during the Jesus and java. Please pray for me! I know imma get nervous. Maybe ill enterain them inbetween time w/my creative dances. hahah jk Fred i also giving a talk that nite so pray for him as well. My talk is called 'scrc & me.'A talk bout wha ive gotten out of scrc and a bit of my own personal testminoy. I think thatll be a great nite to advertise my blog! haha jk Can you imagaine if i said, so if you want to know more bout me check me out on the web @ www.makeitclap.blogspot.com. haha oh man id be kicked out of scrc forever! haha

Jennif and banne were at the meeting. It was nice to see banne again, she helped along w/jennif put some of the things into perspective for me. Which helped me understand things better. I know God will help me see whas going on. I stopped by this other church on the way to the meeting. St. Norberts is a nice church. I had a hard tiem finding their blessed sacarament, i saw whurr it was but i wasnt sure if it was its own seperate chapel or wha. The room looked durrk so i didnt bother to go inside cuz i wasnt sure. I found it was the blessed sacrament chapel. ITs coo i was still able to see it from the church still. I like looking and visiting other catholic churches. Theyre so d0pe to look at! okay thas it folks till tomorrow! We start interviews tomorrow for the youf outreach coordinator. Then probably within the couple weeks start invtws for the rec leader position. PLease pray for my boss that he discerns who to choose to hire.


Please also pray for the new employees were gonna be hiring!

"Yes, I know it might sound strange cuz we just met, but I thank you in advance..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Receive Lord, all my liberty, my memory, my understanding and my whole will. You have given me all that I have, all that I am, and I surrender all to your divine will, that you dispose of me. Give me only your love and your grace. With this I am rich enough, and I have no more to ask." -Saint Ignatius Loyola


Praise God for reirich telling me bout the healing mass today. That was juss d0pe. There was this priest named fr. Corsie Legaspi from the pi. Great mass and his after mass homily was really good made a lot of sense. HE talked bout 5 reasons for illness. First was genetic, talking bout how you can get genetically. The second was eating raw food, he mentioned the pork rinds. haha NOthing but animal fat in those things. The third was Smoking/drinking alochol. The fourth was neglegence. Meaning we dont take good curr of our bodies. We think we can go go go until were in the hospital. Or how people work work work saving up for that big annual vacation and only end up spending the $$ on a hospital bill. That kinda hit me cuz thas what ive been doing a lot as of lately. I keep telling myself i can make it and i can do it. Which only leaves me really exhausted and worn out. Though things are slowly wrapping up, scrc is coming up this weekend and sfc is over now. So that frees up some empty spaces right durr.

The fifth one were something else, but i cant remember at this moment. So after the homily he started to take the people w/cancer to be healed. They all lined up in front of the alter and one by one they started to rest in the spirit. Then the people w/frozen arms were healed. He's a really funny priest his jokes were funny. Reirich and i left bout 930pm and there were still tons of people durr. The church was pretty packed. Id say bout 70-75% of it was filled. Majority of them being filipino.

Skool was aiight, roselyn didnt show up ha and i even saved a seat for her too! We ran into each other later after class she told me she over slept. I so wanted to do that this morning, i felt so lazy being i woke up 740am to get my books. I told her she didnt miss anyting in class all juss basic review stuff still. THough tomorrow were getting to deepa stuff. I was kinda falling asleep in bof of my classes today. Nothing really interesting happened at skool. After the first week its juss boring cuz you already see the people in your class. IN speech 105 we watched some video of some guy who takes photos for national geographic and i guess the whole point of the video was to embrace life. Embrace it through the people you come in contact with, nature all that stuff. In order to leave class we had to explain wha we got out of the video. I was dyin to get out off durr so i volunteered first.

Work was coo the 'senior' haha rec leader put in her notice today. Which was only a one week notice, not two. Then she asked my supervisor for a copy of a resgination to show for her records. Well he told she needed to make one in order for her to get a copy.
So she quickly drafted a letter and then scribbled her name to the bottom of it. I guess seh didnt even bother to check cuz she had put words together that didnt even make sense. She realized that when she came back from the park and redrafted it. So now we have another position open, thas the 8th person weve gone through within a year! Can you believe that?! Im the only one whos managed to stay content. Heif called me today and we talked briefly. SHe told me she quit her job at the pre-school cuz she felt the director was playing favortism towards her daughter.

I invited joanne last nite to prayer meeting, along w/hydee yesterday after mass. Tita marissa is doing her part too in building up the female ration in prayer meeting. She must also agree, the male ratio is going up and the female is going down. haha Its funny tita marissa's daughter is in like 2 of my classes. I have plans on going to liawang next tues. evening. Probably will be the only time ill get to go unless durrs like an SH holiday going on. haha Im excited for 'SH cafe' to come! its gonna be tight, juss getting together w/all the different prayer communities. I gotta start checkin on whos gonna participate. Ill start more on that once SCRC is over. Once scrc is ova, then durr be more time. Woo scrc is this weekend! im so hyped up and excited! its soo like a catholic olympics you got the opening ceremonies which takes place on fri. Then you have the closing ceremonies or mass i should say which is the sunday. I remember getting to curry one of the scrc flags. It was crazy we had to practice that stuff.

The soratorios came back tonite, yay! I missed them while they were gone. NOw theyre back! woO! Dang i wonder if boss lady is going back to work tomorrow. If she does oh man thas tiring, but big ups to her. I didnt get to really finish the end of poetic justice last nite, which sucked. The tracking on the vhs ended up getting bad so i had to fast forward to really watch anything. The movie wwas really good though. haha I cant seem to find the battery charger for my digicam. I had used ony once and i left plugged in and i wonder if my mom put it away some whurr. She doesnt remember if she did or not. SO now i gotta find cuz i need to charge this baby up for the weekend. I need to buy a bigger memory stick but i dont got $$ to do that as of now.

We got ink in our printer again yay! I printed out this morning my sfc pics, well juss the ones ive been posting on my blog. I put them on my board @ work. Its still crazy knowing that is already ova. Even though i complained throughout the whole 8 weeks. It seemed longer than 8 weeks though. Half those people who graduated w/me i didnt even know or talk to. Sfc grad was like a real grad too cuz yo ugot awards for perfect attendance and all that stuff. Jeanne and i didnt qualify for sfc honor roll, oh well at least we graduated. I got to be in the 'cool' group for the skit thingy. I was asked to be in the 'cool group' the pic i posted yesterday is the 'cool group.' hahaha So my aunt asked me this morning how come i always ahve a 'goofy' look when i take pics. Meaning my open mouf pics. I like taking open mouf pics, cuz its boring juss taking regular 'smile' pics. So i gotta throw some 'flava' into it. Jennif likes my open mouf pics! THough i do have pics were im regular juss smile, check the v2 website and youll see some of them durr.

Got to go to adoration before class today and still mangaged to find parking! praise God! woo i felt i should go before going to skool , juss a great way to start off the day. After the mass @ st. polycarp i made my way back over durr to sit and relax for a while durr. That felt good, juss talking and listening ot Jesus. Im still praying bout a certain thing so i continually ask for your prayers! thanks! Tomorrow nite is gonna be a busy nite, i got two meetings i have to attend. Council meeting so they can approve the new employee benefits and then i got scrc final core group meeting. The above picture is michelle and i. I was taking a ju ju be shot cuz that day i had talked ot him and he asked me to take 'jumbo shots' in honor of him. I couldnt resist, especially since there are really d0pe shawtys @ sfc. haha ahh i can twait till fri!




Hurr is the last sfc grad pic to post!

"Everywhere I go, Every smile I see, I know you are there, Smilin' back at me..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"The battle for middle earth has now begun, all our hope lies with two little hobbits..."

OKay, so i was totally wrong w/what i had said to gail last tues. We were talking bout stuff and i mentioned to her something and well as of yesterday or more less last nite. WEll actually maybe im not wrong, it could be juss another 'impulsive' thought THough its kinda been on my mind off and on all day. Its nothing major or life changing juss a 'thought.' Ill pray bout it more...Moving on...

Imma print these pics out from sat. and then put them on my bulletin board @ work! woOo more pictures to add to my thousands of other ones! yay! People when they see my desk @ work are overwhelmed cuz durrs juss os much to look at. Like i have a whole wall filled with all kinds of different things. MOst of them are pictures, the collage jennif and lyn lyn helped me make is d0pe! Thas like a grpi of pictures to look at. Then on my desk i have juss all kinds off knick-knacks and frames and all that stuff to look at it also. I have two bulletin boards on my wall, one is already filled with pics and the other one is half way filled. Yay i love having an office! woO

Mass was great today, the priest was another visiting priest dont know whurr. His name was fr. enrique like inglesias. Though his last name wasnt inglesias. His homily was very good, he talked bout loving each person juss as they are. HIs story about the little girl and the m & m was a great example. I was suppose to be going to the scrc retreat all the way up nurr santa barbra but no one could go. There was no one way i was gonna drive all the over durr in my renta car. THas freaking furr to drive all my bymyself, so i decided not to go. After mass we all ate out @ chilli's and mmm it was good. After mass the guys went to best buy though none of us bought anytning. Came home and the nleft again. Stopped by and talked ot ryan for a while. I love his dog its really cute. He named burr in japanese. Imma name my kid tokar hahah jk thas sick.

HEy remember when streetighter was in! Errone would wait in line trying ot play the top people. I remember going to this place called 'northwoods' by my house. Its actually whurr hometown buffet is now, anyway it was this pizza joint w/arcade. Errone would go to it after baseball games or to watch big sports events. I use to go durr a lot and i remember seeing the huge line for street fighter 2. PEople would put their quarter on the ledge of the game to show 'tehy got next.' ahh those were the days, then when it came onto super nes that was coo! Then durr was mortal kombat, that raised major flags in the media. The question at that time was, 'does video game violence affect a child's behavior.' Ahh now the arcades arent as big as they use to be.

Reirich said he read durr was a healing mass tomorrow @ st. Polycarp. I hope he's right cuz im so going to go over durr if there is. The mexican gave me 'the cathechsim of the catholic church' book as my clp grad present. CLp grafduation is like a real graduation cuz you get gifts! yay! hahaha and you take lots of pictures, well at least i did. Only your parents arent durr to watch you and scream out your name. Its like hs too you know whos the popular ones by the volume of cheers they receieve. HA anywya watching the end battle of LOTR twin towers makes me soo want to jump right into the movie and fight myself! When gandoff comes w/the army and fights oh man its pumps me up. haha Then when the trees come its makes me even more hyped to get up and juss fight. I know fred feels the same way, i guess this could be inspirtation to fight sin and the devil. YOu can totally use lotr as an analogy to our real lives. This movie is a reminder of who i am and who im called to be. The battle has juss begun...



MY closing remarks...
When it comes to faith in Christ, don’t ever get so caught up in questions of the head that you miss what He’s doing in your heart, or that you miss an opportunity to nourish your soul…spiritually AND physically.


Please pray for a couple of my special intentions.

"Maybe it's you...Ive been waiting for all of my life..."im done, im out God bless!

"Everytime you throw dirt at someone else, you lose your own ground..."-Arch Bishop FUlton Sheen

I didnt do anything really all day, except drop something off. Stayed home and juss chilled cleaned my room. I like cleaning my room i dont know how people for example my sister can juss leave her room a mess. MEaning have things thrown all over the place to the point whurr you have piles of clothes or other such things in the corners of you room. agh i cant handle that, i need to make sure my wife be clean. I aint gonna handle no messy wifey, forreals.

Well today marked the end of the clp! yay! its all over, so now my next few sats. i gotta return carson the favor and start going to their prayer group. ITs been forever long since i went. I remember going errsat. back in teh fall. Now they keep asking me when am i gonna come and see them. Kuya ariel and i were talking bout scrc and the clp conference. He wantst go to scrc talks cuz its more grounded spiritually. I told him of course to go to scrc. I cant believe that its all over, its gonna feel weird not going ot bellflower next sat. Out of the whole 8 week program i missed only once cuz i was in vegas baby! What have i gained throughout this program, well that its important to fellowship and meet other people. ?

The whole program has been like a full lss. Im suprised they dont give you some kind of certificate saying youve completed the program. HA 8 weeks ago i didnt even know if i was going ot finish the program. Tonite was fun, except the talk was forever long! Even kuya ariel agreed w/me on that one. Oh man it took up most of the clp tonite. I didnt get into kuya ariels househould like i expected, i was put into my group leaders. Though were gonna change that, i guess the persons who put together the households didnt really look geographically were errone lives. My group had nothing really prepared for the skit portion. We juss let the spirit guide as we did action songs. The other group was hardcore and did this d0pe sign language to this song. They ahd the lights turned off and then white gloves w/a fluorescent light.

Went to the De Jesus' residents before clp cuz we were all suppose to meet our group durr and practice our skit thing. I ended up being the first one durr. I was hoping that i wouldnt be the first one, but i did! They got a nice house actually from outside it looks like a mansion!! I was like whoa! Below is the picture we took while we were eating. It took me forever ot post it i finally realized what i was doing wrong. Jeanne and i took pics tonite while sitting down as if it was a real graduatioN! haha I took a lot of 'jumbo shots' for ju ju be since he asked me to. So now i gotta email him al lthese shots. Im also gonna add the pictures from the bonfire and last clp to my pbase website. From left to right is mark anthony, tanya, thas me! grace, michelle. Robby likes it when i take pictures w/my mouf open! hahaha For the next well youre probbably gonna see a lot of pics. woO the pics gfive a new color/feelin to my blog.


I hate bugs!



"You have changed my sorrow into dancing..."im done, im out God bless!